Monday, July 31, 2006
Make them go away please
Real quick does anyone remember how to get on the list so that they (telemarketers)can't call you anymore? Wasn't it called the "no call list"? I am so tired of the constant calls that I am getting GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!! LOL
Saturday, July 29, 2006
I did it this time
First Things First
I have been meaning to send a special thanks to my friend, Shionge, in Singapore for the lovely gifts that she sent us! We love them and the magnet is placed on the refrigerator with all of the others! So again Thank you. Here is a picture of the gifts! My son is so excited to see the candy!
Ok I meant to tell you all this Saturday evening but I just did not have it in me! LOL. I wrecked Ray's motorcycle Saturday!!! We are ok. I got road burn on my left shoulder, forearm, hip, knee and ankle! Yes I slid across the road. Ray went over my head and landed in the grass. Don't worry I caught the bike with my leg. I now know what the weight of the bike feels like. LOL. Personal note: riding his bike is what we were fighting over the other day! See I told you it was silly. I want to learn how to ride the bike but I am afraid of it at the same time. I get scared when I turn the bike because it feels like it is falling and I can not keep the bike upright, which is what happened when we wrecked. I was turning onto the main road and that happened and I freaked out the clutch popped and we well we wrecked. I was so scared! Not to mention how bad it hurt! I felt my skin tear away from my arm. Can we say ouch!!!!!!! I did not cry but I did feel like I was going to get very sick. I did not but wow it was bad for awhile. We were about an hour from the house so I had no choice but to get back on the back of the bike so we could go home.
Ray was good about it! He was not mad, just glad I was OK. But the bike,which is only 6 months old, has the following damage: broken mirror on the left side, bent handle bars, messed up gas tank, and a little body damage on the side and I somehow broke his foot peg!!!!!
This is the worst part of the day: On the way home I was talking to God and it hit me like a ton of bricks, I always pray for safety, grace and mercy, and for Him to send angels of protection to be with us! This time I forgot to do so!!!! Yep the one time I forgot and I wrecked!!!!!!
Tonight when Ray gets home from work I will take pictures of the bike and of me so you can see my BOO Boos!
On a brighter note I am on day 38 without Nathan and he calls me three to four times a day to talk to me. He now says: "mommy are you ok? How is your arm? Is your knee ok?" He is so worried about me! It is so cute. But then it follows with something like what happened last night! "Ok good, mom we were all talking and Sami, his cousin, and Aunt Diane, and Punkin said that it would be ok after Sami spends two weeks here with me that I can go to Cleveland, Ohio to spend a week with them! Then come back to grandma's and spend like three days with them then I can come home, so can I please go spend time with them. Aunt Diane says she will take good care of me and you can call her if you want to!!! PLEASSSSSSSSSSSSE mom I really want to do this!" A little background on the family is that my Aunt Diane just lost her husband to cancer, they had been together since she was 14 years old. She is now in her mid 40's. She has 2 daughters and 4 granddaughters who love to go to my parents house to play! I know she would take good care of Nathan and believe it or not they all think that I am over protective of him and will not let him go! Which is true, he can stay at my parents but I freak if it is anywhere else. LOL. My mom says "it would mean a lot to them if you would let him go up there, they already have everything planned out" So yes he is going to Cleveland for a week!!!!!!!
I am going absolutely crazy here. I miss my son but at the same time I am glad he is having so much fun! I keep telling myself if he was here we would be paying 300.00 for one week of camp! yep, ouch that is outrageous I know... And he is having so much more fun there and its free. I will be honest and say that it has been very nice to have all of this alone time with Ray. When Nathan is here we do not spend any time without him so with that in mind I have fallen in love with Ray all over again this summer!
I have been meaning to send a special thanks to my friend, Shionge, in Singapore for the lovely gifts that she sent us! We love them and the magnet is placed on the refrigerator with all of the others! So again Thank you. Here is a picture of the gifts! My son is so excited to see the candy!
Ok I meant to tell you all this Saturday evening but I just did not have it in me! LOL. I wrecked Ray's motorcycle Saturday!!! We are ok. I got road burn on my left shoulder, forearm, hip, knee and ankle! Yes I slid across the road. Ray went over my head and landed in the grass. Don't worry I caught the bike with my leg. I now know what the weight of the bike feels like. LOL. Personal note: riding his bike is what we were fighting over the other day! See I told you it was silly. I want to learn how to ride the bike but I am afraid of it at the same time. I get scared when I turn the bike because it feels like it is falling and I can not keep the bike upright, which is what happened when we wrecked. I was turning onto the main road and that happened and I freaked out the clutch popped and we well we wrecked. I was so scared! Not to mention how bad it hurt! I felt my skin tear away from my arm. Can we say ouch!!!!!!! I did not cry but I did feel like I was going to get very sick. I did not but wow it was bad for awhile. We were about an hour from the house so I had no choice but to get back on the back of the bike so we could go home.
Ray was good about it! He was not mad, just glad I was OK. But the bike,which is only 6 months old, has the following damage: broken mirror on the left side, bent handle bars, messed up gas tank, and a little body damage on the side and I somehow broke his foot peg!!!!!
This is the worst part of the day: On the way home I was talking to God and it hit me like a ton of bricks, I always pray for safety, grace and mercy, and for Him to send angels of protection to be with us! This time I forgot to do so!!!! Yep the one time I forgot and I wrecked!!!!!!
Tonight when Ray gets home from work I will take pictures of the bike and of me so you can see my BOO Boos!
On a brighter note I am on day 38 without Nathan and he calls me three to four times a day to talk to me. He now says: "mommy are you ok? How is your arm? Is your knee ok?" He is so worried about me! It is so cute. But then it follows with something like what happened last night! "Ok good, mom we were all talking and Sami, his cousin, and Aunt Diane, and Punkin said that it would be ok after Sami spends two weeks here with me that I can go to Cleveland, Ohio to spend a week with them! Then come back to grandma's and spend like three days with them then I can come home, so can I please go spend time with them. Aunt Diane says she will take good care of me and you can call her if you want to!!! PLEASSSSSSSSSSSSE mom I really want to do this!" A little background on the family is that my Aunt Diane just lost her husband to cancer, they had been together since she was 14 years old. She is now in her mid 40's. She has 2 daughters and 4 granddaughters who love to go to my parents house to play! I know she would take good care of Nathan and believe it or not they all think that I am over protective of him and will not let him go! Which is true, he can stay at my parents but I freak if it is anywhere else. LOL. My mom says "it would mean a lot to them if you would let him go up there, they already have everything planned out" So yes he is going to Cleveland for a week!!!!!!!
I am going absolutely crazy here. I miss my son but at the same time I am glad he is having so much fun! I keep telling myself if he was here we would be paying 300.00 for one week of camp! yep, ouch that is outrageous I know... And he is having so much more fun there and its free. I will be honest and say that it has been very nice to have all of this alone time with Ray. When Nathan is here we do not spend any time without him so with that in mind I have fallen in love with Ray all over again this summer!
Friday, July 28, 2006
I love flowers!
Well ladies I told you that Ray was very good at getting "the little things", well yesterday was very hard for me. I was faced with a something that just knocked me over and I panicked. I emailed him to let him know what was going on while he was at work and then I did my crying and praying, which I do not believe God responds very well too! LOL. I see Him saying "you do your little temper tantrum and when you calm down I will talk to you!" I hate/love that! LOL. So anyway five hours later Ray comes home from work, he did his normal routine, take off his helmet, say hello to Bo, the dog, then give me a kiss, I was on the verge of tears again so I do what I do when I get like that I get busy! I went into the bedroom to fold the laundry and he followed me and when I turned around he had a dozen of roses waiting for me!
Here they are!
Aren't they pretty! I do not know if you can see it or not but I like to collect the willow tree figures and that is the mother and son that I got for easter thanks to Ray!
The flowers may not of made the problem go away but it sure put a smile on my face!!!
Buy the way the problem was solved today God is so good! I needed to just breathe and relax and know that God was taking care of me. He just needed me to butt out!
Here they are!
Aren't they pretty! I do not know if you can see it or not but I like to collect the willow tree figures and that is the mother and son that I got for easter thanks to Ray!
The flowers may not of made the problem go away but it sure put a smile on my face!!!
Buy the way the problem was solved today God is so good! I needed to just breathe and relax and know that God was taking care of me. He just needed me to butt out!
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
Its been a long day
I really do not know how I got the rest of this blog to be underlined so sorry for the mess up!
I went to bed last night in the arms of the man that I love and was very happy then this morning I awoke to the worst headache you could ever imagine! LOL. Ladies I have had a sinus migraine all day long, It hurts to touch the right side of my head and not to mention the fact if I try to focus on anything for too long then I start to see like 4 of the image!!! It has been such a long day! I have tried medicine, food, sleep, Ray bless his heart, even rubbed my head for me for an hour today while he was here on his lunch break. He says he loves me and only me. He is so sweet, I am really lucky I have one of those guys who gets the small things he is so good at that kind of stuff. He even sends me love text messages all the time. I then found out that I do not have any hot water. Our landlord has not paid the oil bill so we do not get hot water until sometime tomorrow, hopefully!
Ray is on duty tonight so I have the house to myself. I have tried to relax as much as possible. I took Ray his dinner and spent some time with him in the barricks. I do not know if I will ever get used to the military life. LOL.
I wanted to thank you all for the words of encouragement! I spoke with the office manager of the job position that I applied for and she told me that they were very interested and that she would call me by Friday to let me know. Again I really want this job! And since I am counting I am on day 33 without Nathan...
I wanted to talk a little bit about what God has been teaching me lately. He is stretching me! He has once again taken me out of my little comfort zone and placed me somewhere that I am uncomfortable. Two years ago I hated this place and now I love this place, this is when He shows you so much. You not only learn how much you have changed but you see things in you that you did not know where there. Prime example: the disagreement with Ray, granted this is two sided but this is what I have learned about myself because you truly can not look at what this did for him (Ray) you have to be willing to take every situation in life and see if and how it applies to you. Did that make sense? See there was this person in my past who I cared a great deal about and we had this one argument all the time, over his motorcycle. Stupid I know but work with here. I had promised myself that I would never let anyone make me feel like he did with that situation ever again. I never thought that Ray would do that to me and I let my guard down and was putting all my trust in him (depending on him etc.) That night when we were out on his bike Ray asked me something and when I told him no his remark was the same that my past had said! Ray had no idea at the time of this situation, and I just froze, I couldn't breathe. My past had confronted my present! Not good for me! LOL. I could not breath, I felt myself shutting down, I did not want him to touch me nor did I want to talk to him! It was the worst feeling ever, now in the past I would of just left that and put it on a shelf and just ignore it but now God doesn't let me. I felt like I had no choice I had to deal with this. STRETCHING!!!!!!!!!! It hurt so much, but as I prayed and I spoke the words to a friend I said to her am I blaming Ray for what happened in my past? Or do I have a right to be upset with him? Or is it both? And if so how do I get past this I see my past every time I look at him? Crazy right!!! No we do this all time and most of us do not even realize what is happening! After I spilled my guts to my friend she just laughed at me and said UHMMM did you need me? Because you just had a whole conversation without me and I think you got your answer! Its funny how that works. So I had to talk to God one more time and asked Him for grace to tell this to Ray and not take it out on him. I did have that talk with Ray and God gave me the words to tell Ray my story and the funny thing is when I was finished I felt whole and I knew God healed me while talking to Ray!
God is so cool!!
I went to bed last night in the arms of the man that I love and was very happy then this morning I awoke to the worst headache you could ever imagine! LOL. Ladies I have had a sinus migraine all day long, It hurts to touch the right side of my head and not to mention the fact if I try to focus on anything for too long then I start to see like 4 of the image!!! It has been such a long day! I have tried medicine, food, sleep, Ray bless his heart, even rubbed my head for me for an hour today while he was here on his lunch break. He says he loves me and only me. He is so sweet, I am really lucky I have one of those guys who gets the small things he is so good at that kind of stuff. He even sends me love text messages all the time. I then found out that I do not have any hot water. Our landlord has not paid the oil bill so we do not get hot water until sometime tomorrow, hopefully!
Ray is on duty tonight so I have the house to myself. I have tried to relax as much as possible. I took Ray his dinner and spent some time with him in the barricks. I do not know if I will ever get used to the military life. LOL.
I wanted to thank you all for the words of encouragement! I spoke with the office manager of the job position that I applied for and she told me that they were very interested and that she would call me by Friday to let me know. Again I really want this job! And since I am counting I am on day 33 without Nathan...
I wanted to talk a little bit about what God has been teaching me lately. He is stretching me! He has once again taken me out of my little comfort zone and placed me somewhere that I am uncomfortable. Two years ago I hated this place and now I love this place, this is when He shows you so much. You not only learn how much you have changed but you see things in you that you did not know where there. Prime example: the disagreement with Ray, granted this is two sided but this is what I have learned about myself because you truly can not look at what this did for him (Ray) you have to be willing to take every situation in life and see if and how it applies to you. Did that make sense? See there was this person in my past who I cared a great deal about and we had this one argument all the time, over his motorcycle. Stupid I know but work with here. I had promised myself that I would never let anyone make me feel like he did with that situation ever again. I never thought that Ray would do that to me and I let my guard down and was putting all my trust in him (depending on him etc.) That night when we were out on his bike Ray asked me something and when I told him no his remark was the same that my past had said! Ray had no idea at the time of this situation, and I just froze, I couldn't breathe. My past had confronted my present! Not good for me! LOL. I could not breath, I felt myself shutting down, I did not want him to touch me nor did I want to talk to him! It was the worst feeling ever, now in the past I would of just left that and put it on a shelf and just ignore it but now God doesn't let me. I felt like I had no choice I had to deal with this. STRETCHING!!!!!!!!!! It hurt so much, but as I prayed and I spoke the words to a friend I said to her am I blaming Ray for what happened in my past? Or do I have a right to be upset with him? Or is it both? And if so how do I get past this I see my past every time I look at him? Crazy right!!! No we do this all time and most of us do not even realize what is happening! After I spilled my guts to my friend she just laughed at me and said UHMMM did you need me? Because you just had a whole conversation without me and I think you got your answer! Its funny how that works. So I had to talk to God one more time and asked Him for grace to tell this to Ray and not take it out on him. I did have that talk with Ray and God gave me the words to tell Ray my story and the funny thing is when I was finished I felt whole and I knew God healed me while talking to Ray!
God is so cool!!
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
I'm alive!!!!!!
I'm alive! It has been crazy here! I have been busy doing absolutely nothing and I can't stand that! I am sure we all know what that feels like! I am a little frustrated right now in so many areas of my life, especially in my relationship and I need to vent so please disregard most of what I am about to say!
First thing: Ray and I have been arguing over something totally stupid so for the last couple of days there has been silence in this house.... I know this will pass and everyone goes through this but this is the stupidest argument ever!!! I know that is sad right! LOL By the way there is peace in the house now!) He's finally stopped argueing with me.
Second thing: I am on day 32 without my son and he doesn't want to come home yet!!! He does want me to bring the dog up to my parents for him but doesn't want to come home! GRRRRR!!!!! I know that I am his mom and we could just go and get him but he is having such a good time with my dad, my dad has just retired and he finally gets to spend his time with Nate and my dad is loving this. So not only do I cheat Nathan out of spending time with all the family but my dad misses out too! I try to remember that when I was a kid we had so much fun there and I listen to his stories and he is doing the same things that I did when I was his age which is good and if he was here he could not do any of that. Not to mention the fact that we live right dab in the middle of a big city and well our yard is ok fine we do not have one!!!!!LOL How can I blame him for not wanting to come back right now. But I do know that he misses me and he tells me that he loves us every night before he goes to bed!
Third thing: I do not have a church here and I can not seem to find one that I like, meaning somewhere that feels like home. Which means that I do not have any friends that I can touch and relate to on a daily basis. If that makes any sense to any of you!
Fourth thing: I still do not have a job! This is so frustrating and sometimes nice! I went on my third interview today with the office that I had told you about last month, the one that I liked but was not qualified for. They still have not filled the position, and today she told me that she would contact me by Friday to let me know one way or the other! Please pray about this I really want this job!
Fifth thing: This is the last one I promise! I have a friend back in Florida who I love dearly but she does not like Ray for several reason of her own, her ex was a marine, so she has a bad taste to start with and the big one Ray believes in God but does not go to church all the time! So when we started dating and I was not there all the time for my friend she started to resent our relationship even more. It came down to her asking me to choose between the two of them. Which I told her I would not do that to her and was amazed that she would even ask bla bla bla bla do we see where this is going? Now that I have moved this is even worse! Do I just stop contact with this person or what? So confused am I!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok Now that I have spilled my guts and sound like such a baby! Please understand that I know that God has this all under control and trust me we have had a few "arguments" over all of this too and He just loves me and laughs and says "SHE'S SO PRECIOUS"..... lol. Ray and I fell in love fast, within the first few months of us seeing each other, and that is what is going to make us last.
First thing: Ray and I have been arguing over something totally stupid so for the last couple of days there has been silence in this house.... I know this will pass and everyone goes through this but this is the stupidest argument ever!!! I know that is sad right! LOL By the way there is peace in the house now!) He's finally stopped argueing with me.
Second thing: I am on day 32 without my son and he doesn't want to come home yet!!! He does want me to bring the dog up to my parents for him but doesn't want to come home! GRRRRR!!!!! I know that I am his mom and we could just go and get him but he is having such a good time with my dad, my dad has just retired and he finally gets to spend his time with Nate and my dad is loving this. So not only do I cheat Nathan out of spending time with all the family but my dad misses out too! I try to remember that when I was a kid we had so much fun there and I listen to his stories and he is doing the same things that I did when I was his age which is good and if he was here he could not do any of that. Not to mention the fact that we live right dab in the middle of a big city and well our yard is ok fine we do not have one!!!!!LOL How can I blame him for not wanting to come back right now. But I do know that he misses me and he tells me that he loves us every night before he goes to bed!
Third thing: I do not have a church here and I can not seem to find one that I like, meaning somewhere that feels like home. Which means that I do not have any friends that I can touch and relate to on a daily basis. If that makes any sense to any of you!
Fourth thing: I still do not have a job! This is so frustrating and sometimes nice! I went on my third interview today with the office that I had told you about last month, the one that I liked but was not qualified for. They still have not filled the position, and today she told me that she would contact me by Friday to let me know one way or the other! Please pray about this I really want this job!
Fifth thing: This is the last one I promise! I have a friend back in Florida who I love dearly but she does not like Ray for several reason of her own, her ex was a marine, so she has a bad taste to start with and the big one Ray believes in God but does not go to church all the time! So when we started dating and I was not there all the time for my friend she started to resent our relationship even more. It came down to her asking me to choose between the two of them. Which I told her I would not do that to her and was amazed that she would even ask bla bla bla bla do we see where this is going? Now that I have moved this is even worse! Do I just stop contact with this person or what? So confused am I!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok Now that I have spilled my guts and sound like such a baby! Please understand that I know that God has this all under control and trust me we have had a few "arguments" over all of this too and He just loves me and laughs and says "SHE'S SO PRECIOUS"..... lol. Ray and I fell in love fast, within the first few months of us seeing each other, and that is what is going to make us last.
Thursday, July 20, 2006
I'm back!
Hello everyone! We made it back home safely after a very extended emergency leave. I do not know if you all know this yet but Ray's grandpa passed away on July 09,2006.
He was saved and we now know that he is sitting up above enjoying the view very much! I can honestly say that I did not know that man very well at all. We both had a wonderful time considering everything that happened.
By the way I am now going on day 27 without my son and I miss him so much and he still does not want to come home! How can I compete with the woods and playing with the boys! LOL
He was saved and we now know that he is sitting up above enjoying the view very much! I can honestly say that I did not know that man very well at all. We both had a wonderful time considering everything that happened.
By the way I am now going on day 27 without my son and I miss him so much and he still does not want to come home! How can I compete with the woods and playing with the boys! LOL
Friday, June 30, 2006
Disregard previous post!
Hello all! Ray's grandpa just told the family he does not want to continue his kidney dialysis he is finished. The doctor's have given him only 10 days to live so we are rushing to Florida to be with him! Please keep there family in your prayers as I know you will!
Love you guys! Talk to you as soon as I can
Enjoy your holiday weekend
God Bless
Love you guys! Talk to you as soon as I can
Enjoy your holiday weekend
God Bless
Its the start of the 96!!
First I just wanted to let you know I got Nathan's pictures to post! So Yeah you can now see his little clothes! By the way the blanket that they are on was the blanket my mom brought me home from the hospital in! So scroll on down and look at how tiny he was!
Update on Nathan and his fighting cousin! LOL. They of course are fine and have forgotten all about the fight! Kids! Oh by the way my nephew loves me and I am still his favorite aunt. (I am his only one by the way!)
Well if you are military you understand the "96". Ray has the next few days off and does not have to be until the 6th so we are making another trip! I am sad to say it is without Nathan
But Ray and I need a little time too! We are making a trip to Georgia to see his sister, his dad and others are coming up for the week as well! Pray for me that this will go over easy. Ray and his sister are fighting nonstop lately and to be honest I am not looking forward to this trip! I suggested that we stay in a cabin or camp so that they will have some space between each other, but he wants to use that as leverage (I think I spelled that wrong). Why is it that when you fight with your siblings you instantly start fighting as if you were kids again? Bottom line the whole situation is stressin' me out!!!!! I will keep you posted on this! That drained me just to write that! LOL...
But on a brighter note I will be spending time out on the boat, water skiing and knee boarding and going to Smoke Mountain and so on! There are so many things I am looking forward to doing! So keep positive right! Not to mention the fire works! I love the fireworks
Update on Nathan and his fighting cousin! LOL. They of course are fine and have forgotten all about the fight! Kids! Oh by the way my nephew loves me and I am still his favorite aunt. (I am his only one by the way!)
Well if you are military you understand the "96". Ray has the next few days off and does not have to be until the 6th so we are making another trip! I am sad to say it is without Nathan
But Ray and I need a little time too! We are making a trip to Georgia to see his sister, his dad and others are coming up for the week as well! Pray for me that this will go over easy. Ray and his sister are fighting nonstop lately and to be honest I am not looking forward to this trip! I suggested that we stay in a cabin or camp so that they will have some space between each other, but he wants to use that as leverage (I think I spelled that wrong). Why is it that when you fight with your siblings you instantly start fighting as if you were kids again? Bottom line the whole situation is stressin' me out!!!!! I will keep you posted on this! That drained me just to write that! LOL...But on a brighter note I will be spending time out on the boat, water skiing and knee boarding and going to Smoke Mountain and so on! There are so many things I am looking forward to doing! So keep positive right! Not to mention the fire works! I love the fireworks
Thursday, June 29, 2006
I miss my son
Ok we are working on day 6 without Nathan and I miss him terribly! I try to be strong and let him stay at my parents as long as he wants. He doesn't get to see our family very often. This is his time to spend time with our some 150 family members, and that is no joke there is really that many of us! We are a huge family!!!!
BUT I MISS HIM AND WANT HIM HOME
Or is this me I am not sure but I am not having a good morning with this! LOL
I'm sure that it helps when he called me last night and says,
Nate: "Mommy will you come and get me please, I do not want to be here!
Me: Why is that buddy what's wrong?
Nate: Erik is always telling me what to do and I am tried of it! I can't take it anymore and Grandma believes him and not me! I do not want to be here anymore!
Me: Nathan! Erik is your cousin and you need to try to figure out a way to get along with him! He loves you and you know that
Nate: "I really do not care! and if he is gonna be that mean to me all the time then he doesn't deserve my love!"
After I tried to pick my mouth up off the floor! I had to tell an already crushed little boy to get rid of the attitude he was having and to let me talk to his grandmother.
It ended up being that the boys were fighting over bubble gum with the neighbor boys! My nephew is older than Nathan and he tries to make sure everyone knows this so there is no confusion and that creates alot of trouble and no fun for my parents! I convinced Nathan to go for a ride with my dad on the 4-wheeler so they could spend some time alone and then things would ease over! I feel sorry for my parents because they do not diffuse these situations very well, which leaves me trying to do it from the phone! Yes my parents are push overs, and they have no intentions on changing! And of course that leaves me being the mean mommy and Aunt in the kids eyes! If I could only count the times I have heard from Erik "gosh Aunt Shelle can be so mean, I'm glad she's not my mom!" LOL. But who does he call when he needs help his mean old aunt! LOL.....
I am sure that this helped me last night too. Remember I had told you that I went through some old stuff at my parents house when I was up there! Well I found Nathan's old baby stuff that I wanted to keep! Now that he is 10 years old and seeing all of his stuff I want another baby so bad! But I have some pictures to share with you! They are of 2 outfits that he used to wear, they are only sleepers but they were so cute on him!
Nathan only weighed 3lbs and was 15 inches long when he was born, so nothing fit him! I do mean nothing! This is actually a cabbage patch kid outfit, remember those! It had so much pink in it but it was the only thing I could find that would not swallow him whole!
The next picture is what he wore when he was 5 months old... That is still a 0-3 month outfit that you are looking at!
And of course this is Nathan now! You would never believe that he started out so small would you!!
Ok I give up on these pictures! I am trying to download them and for some reason it will not let me is anyone else having this problem today or is it just me?
I will try to post the pictures later!
BUT I MISS HIM AND WANT HIM HOME
Or is this me I am not sure but I am not having a good morning with this! LOLI'm sure that it helps when he called me last night and says,
Nate: "Mommy will you come and get me please, I do not want to be here!
Me: Why is that buddy what's wrong?
Nate: Erik is always telling me what to do and I am tried of it! I can't take it anymore and Grandma believes him and not me! I do not want to be here anymore!
Me: Nathan! Erik is your cousin and you need to try to figure out a way to get along with him! He loves you and you know that
Nate: "I really do not care! and if he is gonna be that mean to me all the time then he doesn't deserve my love!"
After I tried to pick my mouth up off the floor! I had to tell an already crushed little boy to get rid of the attitude he was having and to let me talk to his grandmother.
It ended up being that the boys were fighting over bubble gum with the neighbor boys! My nephew is older than Nathan and he tries to make sure everyone knows this so there is no confusion and that creates alot of trouble and no fun for my parents! I convinced Nathan to go for a ride with my dad on the 4-wheeler so they could spend some time alone and then things would ease over! I feel sorry for my parents because they do not diffuse these situations very well, which leaves me trying to do it from the phone! Yes my parents are push overs, and they have no intentions on changing! And of course that leaves me being the mean mommy and Aunt in the kids eyes! If I could only count the times I have heard from Erik "gosh Aunt Shelle can be so mean, I'm glad she's not my mom!" LOL. But who does he call when he needs help his mean old aunt! LOL.....
I am sure that this helped me last night too. Remember I had told you that I went through some old stuff at my parents house when I was up there! Well I found Nathan's old baby stuff that I wanted to keep! Now that he is 10 years old and seeing all of his stuff I want another baby so bad! But I have some pictures to share with you! They are of 2 outfits that he used to wear, they are only sleepers but they were so cute on him!
Nathan only weighed 3lbs and was 15 inches long when he was born, so nothing fit him! I do mean nothing! This is actually a cabbage patch kid outfit, remember those! It had so much pink in it but it was the only thing I could find that would not swallow him whole!
The next picture is what he wore when he was 5 months old... That is still a 0-3 month outfit that you are looking at!
And of course this is Nathan now! You would never believe that he started out so small would you!!
Ok I give up on these pictures! I am trying to download them and for some reason it will not let me is anyone else having this problem today or is it just me?
I will try to post the pictures later!
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Update
Thank you all for the prayers and comments! I went to the job interview and they hired me on the spot. I couldn't believe it. Then while driving I got a call for another job interview and since I was in the area they asked me to stop in and I did and now I have two jobs. LOL. Then when I got home I had two messages from doctor's offices and I have two interviews for next week as well..... I talked to Ray last night about the decisons I needed to make and my choices are stay with one that I already have or go for the doctor's office position, which is what I want, but the down side is if I take this position then we can not go anywhere for Christmas, and to my surprise he was ok with it. So I am trying for the doctor's office next week!!!! I know it sounds sad but this was a true conversation!!!!! LOL...
Seriously I will tell our story later on but for now I think you get the picture!!!!!
Seriously I will tell our story later on but for now I think you get the picture!!!!!
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Monday, June 26, 2006
I need a vacation from my vacation
Hello everyone! I know that it has been a while sense I last wrote but I was at my parents house and you may not believe this but they do not have a computer! I know it is hard to believe that there is still a house without one but it is true! LOL. I love my parents...
A little background on me is I moved away from my family 4 years ago to start over just my son and I. It wasn't easy but I had been talking to God about this and I knew this was something I needed to do. I thought that I would learn to stand on my own and it would show me that I was a strong person no matter what anyone else said.. Well I learned that and so much more! I grew mentally, physically, and spiritually as well. I tell you that so that I can tell you this. Every time I come home and I drive through those mountains God shows me just how much I have changed!
You know God has changed you and that you are moving forward and not backwards, then you go home and you truly see how you have changed! Those of you who are laughing right now know exactly what I am saying! Its not easy and its not funny at the time but man the reward is so worth everything that you walked through.
Over the years I have grown to love the time I spend in the mountains which is what I thought I was getting away from. God has such a funny sense of humor sometimes... This is the view on my trip!
I had a very good visit with friends and family. I spent some time with my dad going through my stuff in the building, good for them bad for me, now I need to find some where to put it here! LOL. I went to lunch with my mom and her friend who is like a aunt to me. And as you know I spent some well needed time with my good friend Charla. We took our kids to her families camp and then to Audra Park. This is the first time I have gotten Nathan to swim in a river since he visited Louisanna and was introduced to alligators in rivers! Yep you do the math, he was terrified of swimming in rivers after that. So 7 years later he tries again. LOL. Here are some of those pictures!!
A little background on me is I moved away from my family 4 years ago to start over just my son and I. It wasn't easy but I had been talking to God about this and I knew this was something I needed to do. I thought that I would learn to stand on my own and it would show me that I was a strong person no matter what anyone else said.. Well I learned that and so much more! I grew mentally, physically, and spiritually as well. I tell you that so that I can tell you this. Every time I come home and I drive through those mountains God shows me just how much I have changed!
You know God has changed you and that you are moving forward and not backwards, then you go home and you truly see how you have changed! Those of you who are laughing right now know exactly what I am saying! Its not easy and its not funny at the time but man the reward is so worth everything that you walked through.
Over the years I have grown to love the time I spend in the mountains which is what I thought I was getting away from. God has such a funny sense of humor sometimes... This is the view on my trip!
I had a very good visit with friends and family. I spent some time with my dad going through my stuff in the building, good for them bad for me, now I need to find some where to put it here! LOL. I went to lunch with my mom and her friend who is like a aunt to me. And as you know I spent some well needed time with my good friend Charla. We took our kids to her families camp and then to Audra Park. This is the first time I have gotten Nathan to swim in a river since he visited Louisanna and was introduced to alligators in rivers! Yep you do the math, he was terrified of swimming in rivers after that. So 7 years later he tries again. LOL. Here are some of those pictures!!
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Tackled IT!!!!!
I did it finally! I got my picture to appear so now you know what I look like! Courtney had asked Charla what I had looked like then I got to explain to Charla that my picture was not up because I could not figure it out! LOL. I know that is sad right! But she talked me through it. So Yeah! Here is the worst possible picture of Ray and I but it is the only one that I have on the computer as of now. I must tell you that Nathan took this picture of us from a chair, I think that is why I look like I have chubby cheeks! So he's not the best looking man that I've been with but that's my Marine.
This was taken after hours of us being outside on the slopes in Snow Shoe Mountain Resort in West Virginia. We had so much fun, we took Nathan up there for the weekend for a birthday present. He had been dying to go snow boarding. Since neither one of us had been skiing/snowboarding in such a long time we decided to let him try it and he LOVED IT. So yep you guessed it next year we will be making another trip up that way to go! LOL. What did I start? I will share more pictures of the trip at a later time.
Ok last week I had attempted to get Ray's CO2 tank filled and get the adapter that he needed for my tackle it Tuesday, well I got to drop it off and then they had to order the piece he needed. This is the completed project, so this weekend we are off to play with the paintball guns..... But first I must tell you that I am on my way to my parents house today! My son likes to go spend the summers out in the country with my parents so I try to make sure that happens every summer! He tells everyone that he is spending the whole summer with them, which ends up being a couple of weeks before he is crying to come home! LOL. God I love that boy! I am excited to see my parents, but the most exciting part is I am from the same town as Charla which means I will get to see my friend and we decided to go see our new friend Courtney who does not live that far away from our home town! So it is official we are starting a blogger reunion!!!!! Can't wait to see you girls!
And with that I will say I gotta go so I can hit the road!
This was taken after hours of us being outside on the slopes in Snow Shoe Mountain Resort in West Virginia. We had so much fun, we took Nathan up there for the weekend for a birthday present. He had been dying to go snow boarding. Since neither one of us had been skiing/snowboarding in such a long time we decided to let him try it and he LOVED IT. So yep you guessed it next year we will be making another trip up that way to go! LOL. What did I start? I will share more pictures of the trip at a later time.
Ok last week I had attempted to get Ray's CO2 tank filled and get the adapter that he needed for my tackle it Tuesday, well I got to drop it off and then they had to order the piece he needed. This is the completed project, so this weekend we are off to play with the paintball guns..... But first I must tell you that I am on my way to my parents house today! My son likes to go spend the summers out in the country with my parents so I try to make sure that happens every summer! He tells everyone that he is spending the whole summer with them, which ends up being a couple of weeks before he is crying to come home! LOL. God I love that boy! I am excited to see my parents, but the most exciting part is I am from the same town as Charla which means I will get to see my friend and we decided to go see our new friend Courtney who does not live that far away from our home town! So it is official we are starting a blogger reunion!!!!! Can't wait to see you girls!
And with that I will say I gotta go so I can hit the road!
Sunday, June 18, 2006
Our trip to Washington, D.C.
Hello everyone! Thank you so much for all the comments We had so much fun.. I am so tired from the hours of walking.. But all worth the adventure! So let me tell you that we started off by leaving at 10 A.M. only to sit in traffic for 90 minutes and we only traveled 30 miles... Can you say frustrating!!! LOL. Ray has a little tolerance for traffic jams when there is no reason for one. So I spent that 90 minutes rubbing his neck just to relax him! LOL. I know that is sad, you can tell me that!! But we got there and we had such a wonderful time. Here are some of the pictures:
This is by far my favorite view in the city. This is standing at the top of the Lincoln Memorial. I love this place, for some reason in the mist of the crowds, there is so much peace with him sitting behind you
There he is, sitting so proud overlooking the city! I have no idea why I like this statue so much but I do.
I had told you early this week that Ray was going back out to the field, but that had changed for like the 15th time. The guys in his company that did go were all running around in groups, we caught up with one of his "paintball buddies" while we were there and finished the rest of the day with him! Sometimes it is hard to find people in the military that you want around your kids and I have been blessed with this person, he is such a good friend to Ray and is so good with Nathan. Nathan thinks that Mike is his own personal play gym...LOL This is the picture of all three of the boys looking to see if there were any of there family members on the Wall. They looked thru this book forever! LOL. It is funny to watch them with Nathan, he somehow becomes "one of the boys" and sometimes that scares me! While walking thru the park on our way back to our car we stopped to looked at a squirrel! Yep you heard me I said squirrel, I am from the mountains and I have seen all kinds of squirrels, white ones, brown ones, gray ones, but not a full black one! The park is full of them, we were so amazed by this. The little squirrel was trying to get food out of a baggy, and it was so funny to watch him try. At one point he had the bad stuck on top of his head and the little guy just freaked out! It was so funny! I know that sounds absolutely stupid to some but it was so cute!
This is his annoyed look, with "will you please leave me alone, I am trying to do something here" look!!!!!!
We honestly had so much fun. I did not know this but the very first marine Corp. building was in Washington D.C. it is called 8th and I. Because it was on the corner of 8th street and I street. Go figure! We looked for this building and trust me it is there but we could not find the dang building! We gave up! It was so funny! Maybe next time we will find it! LOL.
This is by far my favorite view in the city. This is standing at the top of the Lincoln Memorial. I love this place, for some reason in the mist of the crowds, there is so much peace with him sitting behind you
There he is, sitting so proud overlooking the city! I have no idea why I like this statue so much but I do. I had told you early this week that Ray was going back out to the field, but that had changed for like the 15th time. The guys in his company that did go were all running around in groups, we caught up with one of his "paintball buddies" while we were there and finished the rest of the day with him! Sometimes it is hard to find people in the military that you want around your kids and I have been blessed with this person, he is such a good friend to Ray and is so good with Nathan. Nathan thinks that Mike is his own personal play gym...LOL This is the picture of all three of the boys looking to see if there were any of there family members on the Wall. They looked thru this book forever! LOL. It is funny to watch them with Nathan, he somehow becomes "one of the boys" and sometimes that scares me! While walking thru the park on our way back to our car we stopped to looked at a squirrel! Yep you heard me I said squirrel, I am from the mountains and I have seen all kinds of squirrels, white ones, brown ones, gray ones, but not a full black one! The park is full of them, we were so amazed by this. The little squirrel was trying to get food out of a baggy, and it was so funny to watch him try. At one point he had the bad stuck on top of his head and the little guy just freaked out! It was so funny! I know that sounds absolutely stupid to some but it was so cute!
This is his annoyed look, with "will you please leave me alone, I am trying to do something here" look!!!!!!
We honestly had so much fun. I did not know this but the very first marine Corp. building was in Washington D.C. it is called 8th and I. Because it was on the corner of 8th street and I street. Go figure! We looked for this building and trust me it is there but we could not find the dang building! We gave up! It was so funny! Maybe next time we will find it! LOL.
Saturday, June 17, 2006
We are going!
Hey everyone after weeks of trying we are now leaving to go to Washington, D.C. I am so excited. I will share pictures when I get back. Have a great weekend
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
It won't stop raining
Most of you do not know this but my son and I used to live in Florida, right in the panhandle. Which is hurricane capital of the south. LOL. I can say that because I was there. We were there for Ivan, Dennis, Katrina and many more in between those. That is where I met Ray. Since living there it has changed my thoughts on hurricanes, it is now a little bit more personal if you can understand that. When I started hearing about the very first named storm of the season appearing after only 9 days into the season, I got a little worried. Then I found myself going over the plan in my head: I need to go to the store and get some water and snacks and do I have batteries here? Then I laughed at myself because even tho we are still by the water we are now 15 hours away from that storm. Old habbits die hard I guess. Then later on that night we were watching the news and I saw that same look in his eyes that I had earlier today. After I few giggles from me I said to him. "Your thinking about the list aren't you?" It made it so funny when all he could say was "it feels wierd doesn't it!" But now I know what I hated about the little storms, is all the rain that comes after them. GRRRRRRRRR!!!!!! It has rained all day long and not just rain but its gonna flood kind of rain. Its so depressing.
Anyway on a lighter note, I had planned to do this for my tackle it tuesday post but it has not been completed yet so I decided to show what I have gotten done so far.. I have to go get the O2 tank filled and get it fixed. We have someone how got involved with a group of people who like to paintball fight. Which is kind of fun.. It kind of hurts too. LOL.. But the boys were putting so much money into the supplies that Ray decided to go to ebay and get his own tank then just fill up all the little tanks, It really works out to be cheaper in the long run. I hope so anyway!
So here is a picture of the tank before
now I would like to tell you that I have completed this task but since it is now Wednesday, you have guessed right, it has not been completed. The part is now in but since it is raining so hard they can not do anything with it because they have to do everything outside. So I am now waiting for them to call me back. I will keep you posted... Now just in case you are wondering, the big tub behind the tank is all of the guns and paintballs, then the air freshner can is there so I can get rid of the smell when they bring them inside. It smells so bad, its a mix between dirty marines and wet paint! LOL.
I thought that I would give you an update on Nathan. he is still grounded and it is killing him. (Today is the last day) But Ray just found out that he has to go back to the field on Friday for another week! (i'm not complaining, its only a week) But then the guys get liberty for the weekend because of the parade that is going on in D.C. this weekend. So yep you guessed it, I am drivign up Friday evening to get Ray then we are heading for D.C. for the weekend. So now we get to stay there the whole weekend plus see a parade. See God has a way of rewarding us! Even if it feels like punishment at first! Just thought I would share that with you all!
Anyway on a lighter note, I had planned to do this for my tackle it tuesday post but it has not been completed yet so I decided to show what I have gotten done so far.. I have to go get the O2 tank filled and get it fixed. We have someone how got involved with a group of people who like to paintball fight. Which is kind of fun.. It kind of hurts too. LOL.. But the boys were putting so much money into the supplies that Ray decided to go to ebay and get his own tank then just fill up all the little tanks, It really works out to be cheaper in the long run. I hope so anyway!
So here is a picture of the tank before
now I would like to tell you that I have completed this task but since it is now Wednesday, you have guessed right, it has not been completed. The part is now in but since it is raining so hard they can not do anything with it because they have to do everything outside. So I am now waiting for them to call me back. I will keep you posted... Now just in case you are wondering, the big tub behind the tank is all of the guns and paintballs, then the air freshner can is there so I can get rid of the smell when they bring them inside. It smells so bad, its a mix between dirty marines and wet paint! LOL.I thought that I would give you an update on Nathan. he is still grounded and it is killing him. (Today is the last day) But Ray just found out that he has to go back to the field on Friday for another week! (i'm not complaining, its only a week) But then the guys get liberty for the weekend because of the parade that is going on in D.C. this weekend. So yep you guessed it, I am drivign up Friday evening to get Ray then we are heading for D.C. for the weekend. So now we get to stay there the whole weekend plus see a parade. See God has a way of rewarding us! Even if it feels like punishment at first! Just thought I would share that with you all!
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
My Life
This is something that I found while looking through some of the ladies blogs. I unfortunately do not know who it was that did this first... So for that I am sorry!!! It was kind of fun and to be honest with you it was right on target! It was really easy and fast to do. All it is a list of maybe 25 questions and then it tells you what your scores mean... I scored high in the love category, which made Ray happy to know. LOL. Then I struggled with the finance department, but then again who doesn't that apply too. Hope you have fun with it!!
| This Is My Life, Rated | |
| Life: |  7.4 |
| Mind: |  6.7 |
| Body: | 8 |
| Spirit: | 7.9 |
| Friends/Family: |  6 |
| Love: |  9.2 |
| Finance: |  5.2 |
| Take the Rate My Life Quiz | |
Monday, June 12, 2006
All in good timing
I have read some wonderful stories from some of the ladies in our family of bloggers and I am so sorry to tell you that the computer will not let me reply so when Satan steps in and tries to stop us we just step around him and move forward... So here goes.
Courtney---- I love your daughter's little story. I think you are doing an amazing job with your kids. I can not imagine what it must feel like to have your husband so far away from you. I admire what you have done and I only hope I can be half the woman you have been for your husband. I know that soon Ray will be leaving as well and I think listening to your stories has given me a dose of reality of what is to come for me. You truly are an inspiration.
Morning Glory---- I truly needed to hear your message this morning! You had me in tears complete with "Jesus bumps". God definitely has a way of getting our attention. Thank you, you have been a blessing.
I know that I am missing someone and I will think of it later I promise...
I know that I had told you all about my weekend plans and thankfully I am still learning how to deal with change and it is getting easier, which made this weekend so much easier for me.
The races were of course rained out, so we went to plan B. We took Nate out to dinner and then to see the new movie CARS. Which by the way is a must. It was so good.. We had a great time at the movies. It was really late when we got home and the trouble started at dinner, when I told my son, who I love very much do something and he chose to start with the back talking. This traveled with him for the rest of the evening. He tried to be in charge. You gotta love when they do this... His directions when we got home were to go brush his teeth and to get into bed, his remark to both of us was simply this, "NO I am gonna go watch that movie with you guys then I will go to bed!" I came unglued at this point. Lets just say he went to bed crying Friday night. (No hands were laid on him! LOL) He just chose not to let it go at that, he decided that he would get up out of bed and come and tell us one story or another on why he did not need to stay in bed.
Long story short we did not go to D.C. (you can not reward bad behavior with something fun no matter how bad you wanted to go) Instead Nate sat in his room all day on of course you got it the bed he would not stay in the night before!
When Nate was little he was very sick and I almost lost him 3 times, seriously the doctors told me to plan my son's funeral because he would not make it! But when he came through it, by the grace of God no doubt one of the doctor's told me that he has never seen a child with such a strong will to overcome. He is going to do great things when he gets older. I walked away with pride. What he did not tell me that when your child is strong willed that it follows into every aspect of his life. LOL.. Sometimes I think God looks down on me and just laughs when He sees Nathan acting out! LOL! I'm sure it goes something like na na na boo boo!!!!!
But look for the positive right! I got alot done around the house, Ray and I built a stand for our grill. Which was an adventure all in itself. I took some wood and made blocks for my bed, so it would be up higher. (Too hide more stuff) Then found out when we went to bed that they would slide out from under the frame. LOL.. Fixed that on Sunday! LOL. That was so funny by the way. Don't worry no one was hurt.
So Nathan is still grounded but not to worry we are trying the D.C. trip next weekend. And I am not telling him until we leave so then maybe he won't act out! LOL.. I love my son.
Courtney---- I love your daughter's little story. I think you are doing an amazing job with your kids. I can not imagine what it must feel like to have your husband so far away from you. I admire what you have done and I only hope I can be half the woman you have been for your husband. I know that soon Ray will be leaving as well and I think listening to your stories has given me a dose of reality of what is to come for me. You truly are an inspiration.
Morning Glory---- I truly needed to hear your message this morning! You had me in tears complete with "Jesus bumps". God definitely has a way of getting our attention. Thank you, you have been a blessing.
I know that I am missing someone and I will think of it later I promise...
I know that I had told you all about my weekend plans and thankfully I am still learning how to deal with change and it is getting easier, which made this weekend so much easier for me.
The races were of course rained out, so we went to plan B. We took Nate out to dinner and then to see the new movie CARS. Which by the way is a must. It was so good.. We had a great time at the movies. It was really late when we got home and the trouble started at dinner, when I told my son, who I love very much do something and he chose to start with the back talking. This traveled with him for the rest of the evening. He tried to be in charge. You gotta love when they do this... His directions when we got home were to go brush his teeth and to get into bed, his remark to both of us was simply this, "NO I am gonna go watch that movie with you guys then I will go to bed!" I came unglued at this point. Lets just say he went to bed crying Friday night. (No hands were laid on him! LOL) He just chose not to let it go at that, he decided that he would get up out of bed and come and tell us one story or another on why he did not need to stay in bed.
Long story short we did not go to D.C. (you can not reward bad behavior with something fun no matter how bad you wanted to go) Instead Nate sat in his room all day on of course you got it the bed he would not stay in the night before!
When Nate was little he was very sick and I almost lost him 3 times, seriously the doctors told me to plan my son's funeral because he would not make it! But when he came through it, by the grace of God no doubt one of the doctor's told me that he has never seen a child with such a strong will to overcome. He is going to do great things when he gets older. I walked away with pride. What he did not tell me that when your child is strong willed that it follows into every aspect of his life. LOL.. Sometimes I think God looks down on me and just laughs when He sees Nathan acting out! LOL! I'm sure it goes something like na na na boo boo!!!!!
But look for the positive right! I got alot done around the house, Ray and I built a stand for our grill. Which was an adventure all in itself. I took some wood and made blocks for my bed, so it would be up higher. (Too hide more stuff) Then found out when we went to bed that they would slide out from under the frame. LOL.. Fixed that on Sunday! LOL. That was so funny by the way. Don't worry no one was hurt.
So Nathan is still grounded but not to worry we are trying the D.C. trip next weekend. And I am not telling him until we leave so then maybe he won't act out! LOL.. I love my son.
Friday, June 09, 2006
I Passed the test
Hello to all. I have an update on the job interviews that I went on Thursday. For me it will be a big fat no... Let me explain. You go into an interview with confidence, for the most part. I went into this building not even knowing what kind of position I was applying for, remember they called me. After I fill out the appropriate paperwork I find out that I am applying for a nursing position in a OB/GYN research center. First red flag for me. I love babies but hate working in the OB/GYN field. I have tried that once before and hated it.. I was already there and thought I would at least complete the interview. By the time I was sitting in the conference room and talking to the human resource lady I was so sick to stomach and just felt so uncomfortable. Some will understand this completely but when God is trying to get your attention about something, He will do it in such a profound way and this was mine! LOL. I almost felt dirty sitting in that room. I later found out that they deal with abortions and some stem cell research as well as alot of other problems. Now I will not judge for someone else decisions or beliefs but for me this was just something I knew I could not be a part of.
I walked out of that building and by the time I got to my car I was almost in tears, I truly felt that uncomfortable. I started talking to God while I was driving down the road, which is normal for me. I asked Him simply why? His remark was "you said it was in My hands I just wanted to see if you would listen!" OUCH! Good thing is I passed... He showed me that even tho I do not see a job in my near future, which is stressing me out big time, He is still in control and with Him by my side how can I fail and not be protected. It was a very humbling experience.
Just so you know, yes I do look like a fool going down the street hitting my steering wheel crying and just talking away to God. I tell people that we get into fights all the time in my car He just always wins.. LOL... You know what I mean by that too, "Why me God why" I try to do what is right and she doesn't and she always gets what I want" "I just don't understand" type of fight....
On a lighter note it is Friday and we are off the dirt track races tonight if weather permits and then Saturday we are going to take a road trip to D.C. for the day of adventure. Nate hasn't seen D.C. in 6 years so he has forgotten a lot of what it is like and Ray has never been there so it will be fun for me to watch them be shocked and amazed. I hope you guys have a great weekend and I will post pictures of our adventures soon...
I walked out of that building and by the time I got to my car I was almost in tears, I truly felt that uncomfortable. I started talking to God while I was driving down the road, which is normal for me. I asked Him simply why? His remark was "you said it was in My hands I just wanted to see if you would listen!" OUCH! Good thing is I passed... He showed me that even tho I do not see a job in my near future, which is stressing me out big time, He is still in control and with Him by my side how can I fail and not be protected. It was a very humbling experience.
Just so you know, yes I do look like a fool going down the street hitting my steering wheel crying and just talking away to God. I tell people that we get into fights all the time in my car He just always wins.. LOL... You know what I mean by that too, "Why me God why" I try to do what is right and she doesn't and she always gets what I want" "I just don't understand" type of fight....
On a lighter note it is Friday and we are off the dirt track races tonight if weather permits and then Saturday we are going to take a road trip to D.C. for the day of adventure. Nate hasn't seen D.C. in 6 years so he has forgotten a lot of what it is like and Ray has never been there so it will be fun for me to watch them be shocked and amazed. I hope you guys have a great weekend and I will post pictures of our adventures soon...
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