"Military Wife"
The good Lord was creating a model for military wives and was into his sixth day of overtime when an angel appeared. She said, "Lord, you seem to be having a lot of trouble with this one."
The Lord replied, "Have you seen the specs on this order? She has to be completely independent, possess the qualities of both father and mother, be a perfect hostess with an hour's notice, run on black coffee, handle emergencies without a manual, and she must be willing to move to a new location ten times in seventeen years."
The Lord continued, "We must give her an unusually strong heart so it can swell with pride in her husband's achievements, sustain the pain of separations, beat soundly when it is overworked and be large enough to say,
'I Love You,' regardless."
"Lord," said the angel, touching his arm, "get some rest. You can finish this tomorrow."
"I can't stop now," said the Lord. "I am so close to creating something unique. Already this model heals herself when she is sick, can wave goodbye to her husband from a pier, a runway, or a depot and understand why it's important that he leave."
The angel bent over and ran her finger across the cheek of the Lord's creation. "There's a leak," she announced. "Something is wrong with the construction. You are trying to put too much into this model."
"What you see is not a leak," the Lord said. "It's a tear."
"A tear? What is it there for?" asked the angel.
The Lord replied, "It's for joy, sadness, pain, disappointment, loneliness, pride and a dedication to all the values that she and her husband hold dear."
"You are a genius!" exclaimed the angel.
The Lord looked puzzled and replied, "I didn't put it there."
-Author unknown
I am sure that you have all read this before but I just wanted to give praise to the military wives whose husband are away protecting our freedom while the wives are at home protecting there families..... I have the upmost respect for each and every one you!
Lovwe you guys.
Monday, August 28, 2006
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Hello everyone!! It has been so crazy around here. Its funny how I have never met any one you out there in blog land but I miss you guys! LOL. I am loving my job. It is a field that I have never worked in, so there is so much for me to learn. I feel like a sponge that has been left in the water and can hold no more... It is truly so much information. I work in a pediatric cardiology office (I do not know if I told you that) so these little kids are so very complicated. It really makes you value your life a little more. Things that I take for granted, like walking up stairs, is something that some of these little guys will never be allowed to do. I want another baby. Hopefully I will get another one soon. The girls that I work with are all great. Its so nice to work in an office that feels like a family. Not to mention I am being productive. Yeah me!!!!!
Thursday, August 17, 2006
OUCHHHHHHHH
Wow what a week this has been! It has been a week full of orientation and let me tell you that they are making sure we are well informed... They have given us so much information, I am on overload now. I came home one night and Ray tried to show me something and he had to tell me like 4 times before I would get it. It unfortunately had nothing to do with nursing and since it did not I could not get it!!
My job is the one that I have been waiting on. They called me and set up a orientation date well when it happened it felt like it happened so fast. Funny since I applied back in June! I am working in a high risk children's hospital. It seems to be a great hospital, they are very good and caring at what they do. The girls in my office seem sweet. They put a huge vase of flowers in my office and signs are every where in the clinic saying "welcome Michelle, we are so glad that you are finally here!" How funny is that!
Real quick before I leave, the title of my blog today is ouchhhhh. This is because I had to get shots yesterday... I now feel sorry for the little ones that go and get a series of vaccines in one day! I had to get my PPD (TB), MMR (measles, mumps and rubella) because my titer was low and if that was not bad enough they then told me that I had to get another series of the Hep B vaccines because of the same thing (low titer), then I took the Tdap (tetnus, diptheria, and pertusis) Can you believe there is another out break of whooping cough! That is crazy! So I got a total of 4 injections one right after another. The Tdap and MMR really hurt when they get into your system. Of course my body did not react so well to this. By the time I came home I had a temp of 102. Aches everywhere and I had hives yes I am allergic to one of them. Which one I have no idea!!!! I feel alot better today but my arms are so sore!! Yes I am crying like a baby this hurts! I feel sorry for those little guys now! LOL.
Well off to work I go!
My job is the one that I have been waiting on. They called me and set up a orientation date well when it happened it felt like it happened so fast. Funny since I applied back in June! I am working in a high risk children's hospital. It seems to be a great hospital, they are very good and caring at what they do. The girls in my office seem sweet. They put a huge vase of flowers in my office and signs are every where in the clinic saying "welcome Michelle, we are so glad that you are finally here!" How funny is that!
Real quick before I leave, the title of my blog today is ouchhhhh. This is because I had to get shots yesterday... I now feel sorry for the little ones that go and get a series of vaccines in one day! I had to get my PPD (TB), MMR (measles, mumps and rubella) because my titer was low and if that was not bad enough they then told me that I had to get another series of the Hep B vaccines because of the same thing (low titer), then I took the Tdap (tetnus, diptheria, and pertusis) Can you believe there is another out break of whooping cough! That is crazy! So I got a total of 4 injections one right after another. The Tdap and MMR really hurt when they get into your system. Of course my body did not react so well to this. By the time I came home I had a temp of 102. Aches everywhere and I had hives yes I am allergic to one of them. Which one I have no idea!!!! I feel alot better today but my arms are so sore!! Yes I am crying like a baby this hurts! I feel sorry for those little guys now! LOL.
Well off to work I go!
Monday, August 14, 2006
I was M.I.A.
Hey girls I am sorry I have not been around but things have been busy here. I started my new job today and so far I like it! I will try to get caught up on all of my blog reading but until then I love you guys and take care!!
Thursday, August 10, 2006
I wish you a sandpiper
The Sandpiper
by Robert Peterson
She was six years old when I first met her on the beach near
where I live.
I drive to this beach, a distance of three or four miles,
whenever the world begins to close in on me. She was building a sand castle or
something and looked up, her eyes as blue as the sea.
"Hello," she said.
I answered with a nod, not really in the mood to bother with a small child.
"I'm building," she said.
"I see that. What is it?" I asked, not really caring.
"Oh, I don't know, I just like the feel of sand."
That sounds good, I thought, and slipped off my shoes.
A sandpiper glided by. "That's a joy," the child said.
"It's a what?"
"It's a joy. My mama says sandpipers come to bring us joy."
The bird went gliding down the beach. Good-bye joy, I muttered to myself,
hello pain, and turned to walk on. I was depressed, my life seemed
completely out of balance.
"What's your name?" She wouldn't give up.
"Robert," I answered. "I'm Robert Peterson."
"Mine's Wendy... I'm six."
"Hi, Wendy."
She giggled. "You're funny," she said.
In spite of my gloom, I laughed too and walked on. Her musical giggle followed me.
"Come again, Mr. P," she called. "We'll have another happy day."
The next few days consisted of a group of unruly Boy Scouts, PTA meetings,
and an ailing mother. The sun was shining one morning as I took my hands out
of the dishwater. I need a sandpiper, I said to myself, gathering up my coat.
The ever-changing balm of the seashore awaited me. The breeze was chilly but I strode along, trying to recapture the serenity I needed.
"Hello, Mr. P," she said. "Do you want to play?"
"What did you have in mind?" I asked, with a twinge of annoyance.
"I don't know. You say."
"How about charades?" I asked sarcastically.
The tinkling laughter burst forth again. "I don't know what that is."
"Then let's just walk."
Looking at her, I noticed the delicate fairness of her face. "Where do you live?" I asked.
"Over there." She pointed toward a row of summer cottages.
Strange, I thought, in winter.
"Where do you go to school?"
"I don't go to school. Mommy says we're on vacation."
She chattered little girl talk as we strolled up the beach, but my mind was
on other things. When I left for home, Wendy said it had been a happy day.
Feeling surprisingly better, I smiled at her and agreed.
Three weeks later, I rushed to my beach in a state of near panic. I was in no
mood to even greet Wendy. I thought I saw her mother on the porch and felt
like demanding she keep her child at home.
"Look, if you don't mind," I said crossly when Wendy caught up with me, "I'd
rather be alone today." She seemed unusually pale and out of breath.
"Why?" she asked.
I turned to her and shouted, "Because my mother died!" and thought, My God, why was I saying this to a little child?
"Oh," she said quietly, "then this is a bad day."
"Yes," I said, "and yesterday and the day before and -- oh, go away!"
"Did it hurt?" she inquired.
"Did what hurt?" I was exasperated with her, with myself.
"When she died?"
"Of course it hurt!" I snapped, misunderstanding, wrapped up in myself. I strode off.
A month or so after that, when I next went to the beach, she
wasn't there. Feeling guilty, ashamed, and admitting to myself I missed her,
I went up to the cottage after my walk and knocked at the door. A drawn
looking young woman with honey-colored hair opened the door.
"Hello," I said, "I'm Robert Peterson. I missed your little girl today and wondered where she was."
"Oh yes, Mr. Peterson, please come in. Wendy spoke of you so much. I'm afraid I allowed her to bother you. If she was a nuisance, please, accept my apologies."
"Not at all -- she's a delightful child." I said, suddenly realizing that I meant what I had just said.
"Wendy died last week, Mr. Peterson. She had leukemia. Maybe she didn't tell you."
Struck dumb, I groped for a chair. I had to catch my breath.
"She loved this beach, so when she asked to come, we couldn't say no. She seemed so much better here and had a lot of what she called happy days.
But the last few weeks, she declined rapidly..." Her voice faltered, "She left
something for you, if only I can find it. Could you wait a moment while I look?"
I nodded stupidly, my mind racing for something to say to this lovely young
woman. She handed me a smeared envelope with "MR. P" printed in bold
childish letters. Inside was a drawing in bright crayon hues-- a yellow beach, a blue sea, and a brown bird. Underneath was carefully printed:
A SANDPIPER TO BRING YOU JOY.
Tears welled up in my eyes, and a heart that had almost forgotten to love
opened wide. I took Wendy's mother in my arms. "I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry,
I'm so sorry," I uttered over and over, and we wept together.
The precious little picture is framed now and hangs in my study. Six
words -- one for each year of her life -- that speak to me of harmony, courage, and
undemanding love.
A gift from a child with sea blue eyes and hair the color of sand -- who taught me the gift of love.
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NOTE: This is a true story sent out by Robert Peterson. It
happened over 20 years ago and the incident changed his life forever. It
serves as a reminder to all of us that we need to take time to enjoy living and
life and each other.
The price of hating other human beings is loving oneself less.
Life is so complicated, the hustle and bustle of everyday traumas
can make us lose focus about what is truly important or what is only a
momentary setback or crisis.
This week, be sure to give your loved ones an extra hug, and by all means,
take a moment... even if it is only ten seconds, to stop and smell the roses.
This comes from someone's heart, and is read with many and now I share it with you...
May God bless everyone who receives this! There are NO coincidences!
Everything that happens to us happens for a reason. Never brush aside
anyone as insignificant. Who knows what they can teach us?
by Robert Peterson
She was six years old when I first met her on the beach near
where I live.
I drive to this beach, a distance of three or four miles,
whenever the world begins to close in on me. She was building a sand castle or
something and looked up, her eyes as blue as the sea.
"Hello," she said.
I answered with a nod, not really in the mood to bother with a small child.
"I'm building," she said.
"I see that. What is it?" I asked, not really caring.
"Oh, I don't know, I just like the feel of sand."
That sounds good, I thought, and slipped off my shoes.
A sandpiper glided by. "That's a joy," the child said.
"It's a what?"
"It's a joy. My mama says sandpipers come to bring us joy."
The bird went gliding down the beach. Good-bye joy, I muttered to myself,
hello pain, and turned to walk on. I was depressed, my life seemed
completely out of balance.
"What's your name?" She wouldn't give up.
"Robert," I answered. "I'm Robert Peterson."
"Mine's Wendy... I'm six."
"Hi, Wendy."
She giggled. "You're funny," she said.
In spite of my gloom, I laughed too and walked on. Her musical giggle followed me.
"Come again, Mr. P," she called. "We'll have another happy day."
The next few days consisted of a group of unruly Boy Scouts, PTA meetings,
and an ailing mother. The sun was shining one morning as I took my hands out
of the dishwater. I need a sandpiper, I said to myself, gathering up my coat.
The ever-changing balm of the seashore awaited me. The breeze was chilly but I strode along, trying to recapture the serenity I needed.
"Hello, Mr. P," she said. "Do you want to play?"
"What did you have in mind?" I asked, with a twinge of annoyance.
"I don't know. You say."
"How about charades?" I asked sarcastically.
The tinkling laughter burst forth again. "I don't know what that is."
"Then let's just walk."
Looking at her, I noticed the delicate fairness of her face. "Where do you live?" I asked.
"Over there." She pointed toward a row of summer cottages.
Strange, I thought, in winter.
"Where do you go to school?"
"I don't go to school. Mommy says we're on vacation."
She chattered little girl talk as we strolled up the beach, but my mind was
on other things. When I left for home, Wendy said it had been a happy day.
Feeling surprisingly better, I smiled at her and agreed.
Three weeks later, I rushed to my beach in a state of near panic. I was in no
mood to even greet Wendy. I thought I saw her mother on the porch and felt
like demanding she keep her child at home.
"Look, if you don't mind," I said crossly when Wendy caught up with me, "I'd
rather be alone today." She seemed unusually pale and out of breath.
"Why?" she asked.
I turned to her and shouted, "Because my mother died!" and thought, My God, why was I saying this to a little child?
"Oh," she said quietly, "then this is a bad day."
"Yes," I said, "and yesterday and the day before and -- oh, go away!"
"Did it hurt?" she inquired.
"Did what hurt?" I was exasperated with her, with myself.
"When she died?"
"Of course it hurt!" I snapped, misunderstanding, wrapped up in myself. I strode off.
A month or so after that, when I next went to the beach, she
wasn't there. Feeling guilty, ashamed, and admitting to myself I missed her,
I went up to the cottage after my walk and knocked at the door. A drawn
looking young woman with honey-colored hair opened the door.
"Hello," I said, "I'm Robert Peterson. I missed your little girl today and wondered where she was."
"Oh yes, Mr. Peterson, please come in. Wendy spoke of you so much. I'm afraid I allowed her to bother you. If she was a nuisance, please, accept my apologies."
"Not at all -- she's a delightful child." I said, suddenly realizing that I meant what I had just said.
"Wendy died last week, Mr. Peterson. She had leukemia. Maybe she didn't tell you."
Struck dumb, I groped for a chair. I had to catch my breath.
"She loved this beach, so when she asked to come, we couldn't say no. She seemed so much better here and had a lot of what she called happy days.
But the last few weeks, she declined rapidly..." Her voice faltered, "She left
something for you, if only I can find it. Could you wait a moment while I look?"
I nodded stupidly, my mind racing for something to say to this lovely young
woman. She handed me a smeared envelope with "MR. P" printed in bold
childish letters. Inside was a drawing in bright crayon hues-- a yellow beach, a blue sea, and a brown bird. Underneath was carefully printed:
A SANDPIPER TO BRING YOU JOY.
Tears welled up in my eyes, and a heart that had almost forgotten to love
opened wide. I took Wendy's mother in my arms. "I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry,
I'm so sorry," I uttered over and over, and we wept together.
The precious little picture is framed now and hangs in my study. Six
words -- one for each year of her life -- that speak to me of harmony, courage, and
undemanding love.
A gift from a child with sea blue eyes and hair the color of sand -- who taught me the gift of love.
----------------------------------------------------------------------
NOTE: This is a true story sent out by Robert Peterson. It
happened over 20 years ago and the incident changed his life forever. It
serves as a reminder to all of us that we need to take time to enjoy living and
life and each other.
The price of hating other human beings is loving oneself less.
Life is so complicated, the hustle and bustle of everyday traumas
can make us lose focus about what is truly important or what is only a
momentary setback or crisis.
This week, be sure to give your loved ones an extra hug, and by all means,
take a moment... even if it is only ten seconds, to stop and smell the roses.
This comes from someone's heart, and is read with many and now I share it with you...
May God bless everyone who receives this! There are NO coincidences!
Everything that happens to us happens for a reason. Never brush aside
anyone as insignificant. Who knows what they can teach us?
Monday, August 07, 2006
What A Relaxing Weekend
Wow it is amazing how much better you feel after a relaxing weekend! We had such a good time this weekend, nothing major happened. We just got to enjoy each others company and it can't get much better than that! Did I ever tell you guys how Ray told me he loved me? We were only a few months into our relationship when he told me he loved me and before we knew it, we were moving in with each other only 4 months into it. Awww I know. LOL. This is will not be an exciting post today.
Friday night Ray and I simply made dinner at home and watched a movie, which is always a nice way to unwind. I sat and listened to him go on and on about the stresses of his week. Which he does a lot. We talked about it and I gave him the objective opinions that I am so good at, you know like well do you think maybe he is harder on you because he knows and expects better from you so when you give him something that is not right or messed up for whatever reason, you get a negative response and the other guy he just over looks (which is his normal). Your boss is always telling you how neat and how he likes how you have changed everythig right? I usually get a look followed with ok I can give him that! But it is very important to listen, this I am learning. Being able to put your stress aside and listen to his and make sure he knows that they matter is not something that always comes natural to women. We for the most part see them as the rock in the relationship if you will, and its easy to forget that men have stress and when they will actually talk about it you have to let them!!!! Hope that made sense! But anyhoo take that as free advice!!!
Saturday we simply woke up, he made me breakfast which is normal for us. I cook all week and he makes breakfast on the weekends. It works for us, but of course I don't work. We went to see Talladega Nights, the Nascar movie. I am not really a Nascar fan. I was out numbered so I had to get used to it. The movie was one of those stupid funny kind of movies. I was definitely a movie I wanted to see but I just do not think I would want to see it twice! We then came home jumped on the motorcycle and went for a ride, he drove, we went to an outdoor store yes most men's paradise!!! I think we spent two hours in that store! Me bored out of my mind. It was complete with an aquarium and rock climbing wall and more. We did a quick dinner and a restaurant near by, then home to grab the dog, and the car and off to the beach we go... There is just something about walking on the beach late at night! It is so relaxing, I love living by the water. We had so much fun with the dog out there. He did such a good job. I was so proud of him. Bo, is his dog. He played with his Frisbee and completely ignored all the other dogs and for a Pitt that is good and almost unheard of! We then came home and attempted to put Bo in the house and he noticed that I did not get out of the car so he stood by the door waiting for me. It was so cute! So when Ray tried to put him in his kennel he shot out the door and jumped in the car and got in the back seat and sat there so pretty. We tried to call him and he would turn his head and look away from us like I do not hear you!! The dog won he got to go get ice cream with us! What a spoiled dog!!!
Sunday was simply I cleaned house, as usual, and he fixed 4-wheeler! We did go to the craft store and I bought stuff to make candles. I am so excited so tomorrow look for pictures of the candles!!
I warned you nothing exciting in this post
This what I found on the refrigerator Sunday evening! Isn't he sweet!!!
Friday night Ray and I simply made dinner at home and watched a movie, which is always a nice way to unwind. I sat and listened to him go on and on about the stresses of his week. Which he does a lot. We talked about it and I gave him the objective opinions that I am so good at, you know like well do you think maybe he is harder on you because he knows and expects better from you so when you give him something that is not right or messed up for whatever reason, you get a negative response and the other guy he just over looks (which is his normal). Your boss is always telling you how neat and how he likes how you have changed everythig right? I usually get a look followed with ok I can give him that! But it is very important to listen, this I am learning. Being able to put your stress aside and listen to his and make sure he knows that they matter is not something that always comes natural to women. We for the most part see them as the rock in the relationship if you will, and its easy to forget that men have stress and when they will actually talk about it you have to let them!!!! Hope that made sense! But anyhoo take that as free advice!!!
Saturday we simply woke up, he made me breakfast which is normal for us. I cook all week and he makes breakfast on the weekends. It works for us, but of course I don't work. We went to see Talladega Nights, the Nascar movie. I am not really a Nascar fan. I was out numbered so I had to get used to it. The movie was one of those stupid funny kind of movies. I was definitely a movie I wanted to see but I just do not think I would want to see it twice! We then came home jumped on the motorcycle and went for a ride, he drove, we went to an outdoor store yes most men's paradise!!! I think we spent two hours in that store! Me bored out of my mind. It was complete with an aquarium and rock climbing wall and more. We did a quick dinner and a restaurant near by, then home to grab the dog, and the car and off to the beach we go... There is just something about walking on the beach late at night! It is so relaxing, I love living by the water. We had so much fun with the dog out there. He did such a good job. I was so proud of him. Bo, is his dog. He played with his Frisbee and completely ignored all the other dogs and for a Pitt that is good and almost unheard of! We then came home and attempted to put Bo in the house and he noticed that I did not get out of the car so he stood by the door waiting for me. It was so cute! So when Ray tried to put him in his kennel he shot out the door and jumped in the car and got in the back seat and sat there so pretty. We tried to call him and he would turn his head and look away from us like I do not hear you!! The dog won he got to go get ice cream with us! What a spoiled dog!!!
Sunday was simply I cleaned house, as usual, and he fixed 4-wheeler! We did go to the craft store and I bought stuff to make candles. I am so excited so tomorrow look for pictures of the candles!!
I warned you nothing exciting in this post
This what I found on the refrigerator Sunday evening! Isn't he sweet!!!
Thursday, August 03, 2006
What a weird day
Well I am short on time today but I just wanted to give a real quick update on the job interview today: I went and the position is for a clinic and they said that I could work on some nights until 10:30. That is a long day for a doctor's office, I think. Plus you would work weekends. Call me crazy but dang!!!! So we will see. I have decided that I will wait until Monday and if I do not hear back from the human resource department then I will call back on Tuesday and see if I can go and get the packet on my own. What do you think is that being to pushy or am I ok with doing that? Please be honest with me....
You know how some people are blessed with grace to deal with situations and you just look at them and say how did you do that and be so nice and caring about it? I do not think I could do that,kind of situation. Well I had one of those today and it kind of surprised myself. Still not sure what to think about it! Let me explain.
A little while back Ray received a phone call from a girl in his past, she was crying to him about her problems, (yes she is a ex's of his!) He of course tells me about the phone call and my response was why is she calling you? That is not your place anymore. He said I know that and I told her that same thing. I trust him and all that so we were ok. But I'm not wrong in thinking that is not ok. As he is telling me about her little problem I say well if she calls again let me talk to her and I will help her, but he knows I always do this kind of thing. So now with saying that--today Ray comes home from lunch and says while he is holding his phone, remember when you said bla bla bla, well meet my ex!!!! He then hands me the phone and I say hello and hear this girl crying on the other end. I say "honey what is wrong?" She spills her guts to me about her situation. I at this point am really dumb founded at all this. She is a single mother of a small daughter and is involved in a nasty relationship and does not know how to let go of this man even though she knows she needs to. I talk to her for 45 minutes then tell her that I need to go and she asks me if I would please call her back, I said ummmmmmm I guess I can if you need me to, I take her number and tell her goodbye.
I get off the phone thank Ray while laughing and say thanks for the warning! LOL. He said I knew you would know just what to say to her, your really good at that kind of stuff and they really listen to you when you talk to them that's why i love you so much. Thank you baby!
So after my job interview I get back in my car and I start to pray about this and he simply tells me "If I hadn't sent someone to you in your time of need what would of happened to you?" After I stopped crying and said but God this is too weird for me that is his ex girlfriend. I got over myself and found love for this girl who needed someone. I called her back as I promised and got her address so I could send her some CD's that really helped me in my past and talked to her for an hour, this girl is not saved and I got her the name and address of a church she is gonna go to, and then she tells me "You know when I called Ray today something told me that I was gonna talk to you and that you had something that I needed, I could feel it, and I just wanted to thank you for talking to me!"
Now is that grace or what!
You know how some people are blessed with grace to deal with situations and you just look at them and say how did you do that and be so nice and caring about it? I do not think I could do that,kind of situation. Well I had one of those today and it kind of surprised myself. Still not sure what to think about it! Let me explain.
A little while back Ray received a phone call from a girl in his past, she was crying to him about her problems, (yes she is a ex's of his!) He of course tells me about the phone call and my response was why is she calling you? That is not your place anymore. He said I know that and I told her that same thing. I trust him and all that so we were ok. But I'm not wrong in thinking that is not ok. As he is telling me about her little problem I say well if she calls again let me talk to her and I will help her, but he knows I always do this kind of thing. So now with saying that--today Ray comes home from lunch and says while he is holding his phone, remember when you said bla bla bla, well meet my ex!!!! He then hands me the phone and I say hello and hear this girl crying on the other end. I say "honey what is wrong?" She spills her guts to me about her situation. I at this point am really dumb founded at all this. She is a single mother of a small daughter and is involved in a nasty relationship and does not know how to let go of this man even though she knows she needs to. I talk to her for 45 minutes then tell her that I need to go and she asks me if I would please call her back, I said ummmmmmm I guess I can if you need me to, I take her number and tell her goodbye.
I get off the phone thank Ray while laughing and say thanks for the warning! LOL. He said I knew you would know just what to say to her, your really good at that kind of stuff and they really listen to you when you talk to them that's why i love you so much. Thank you baby!
So after my job interview I get back in my car and I start to pray about this and he simply tells me "If I hadn't sent someone to you in your time of need what would of happened to you?" After I stopped crying and said but God this is too weird for me that is his ex girlfriend. I got over myself and found love for this girl who needed someone. I called her back as I promised and got her address so I could send her some CD's that really helped me in my past and talked to her for an hour, this girl is not saved and I got her the name and address of a church she is gonna go to, and then she tells me "You know when I called Ray today something told me that I was gonna talk to you and that you had something that I needed, I could feel it, and I just wanted to thank you for talking to me!"
Now is that grace or what!
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
I am so frustrated
Have you ever felt like your whole day was wasted? That you ran around and got absolutely nothing accomplished? Well that was me today! I recently got my mail from the move, the post office kind of lost some of it and it finally came to me today! Yeah right NOOO because it had 2 payroll checks and a deposit check in it that no one will cash for me here!!! It is too old. The checks were dated 4 months ago! So that is wasted money that I will never see! That is ok! I can get over that. But I told you all that I got that job that I had wanted, well now I just need to get them to tell me when I can start!!! So frustrating! I really need to start this job soon! Cash funds are really low and we all know how that feels.
So I would like some feedback on this please! (But first realize I know that God has this all under control and that maybe while I am telling you all this I will get the answer that I need!) Silly I know but it is nice to have someone to throw it out there to and just be like NOW thanks I feel better!
So here goes:
I applied for this job back in June. On June 14th they asked me to come in for an interview, so I did. It went well and she said that they needed to get with the head doctor and set up a time for the applicants to meet with the nurses and the doctors. She asked me to give her a week and then she would give me a call. Ok fine I understand and that is reasonable, right.
One week goes by and I hear nothing, so I figured since I did not get the job since I really was not qualified for the position and I new that. Two weeks went by and they asked me to come in on July 7th for another interview and I said yes. I was very excited and then we get called to go home because of Ray's grandpa. So I called them and explained to them the situation and she told me not to worry and we rescheduled the appointment. The interview went very well again and I thought that I had gotten the position and yet I walked away not knowing anything.
I waited and then the following week I call them back and I was told that she thought that I did get the position but she would call me back with more information. The following day they ask me to come in for another interview with the office manager. Which I did and by the way that was a waste of my time, she honestly just wanted to meet me! No joke that is what she told me!! She then told me that they needed to fill the position as soon as possible and she would call me in two days to let me know either way. I said great! That's when I found out that I got the job, which was last Wednesday. She said she would call Friday with more details. I get a call from there human resource department with the hospital on Thursday and I faxed her the appropriate paperwork, then nothing. No call on Friday no call on Monday, remember they were the ones who said they need to fill this position like now, yet they don't seem to be doing this!
I called them and asked what was up (in a very professional way) and she told me that they have a salary for me and we talked about that and then she tells me I need to wait for human resources to call me again!!!!
I could not be wrong but it does not sound like this office is run very well. But in the mean time I have another interview with another doctor's office on Thursday just in case! LOL.
So is this God shutting that door and opening up another one or is He just having fun watching me freak out and not letting go of the control and letting him deal with it?!? I know I am mess. PLEASE CLARITY WOULD BE GREATLY APPRECIATED!!! Or if you would just like to laugh at me and say poor little girl, she is just so precious! Stroke my hair and hug me! That would be ok too!!!!
Update on my boo boo's I am doing much better. I am not as sore as I was and here is a picture of the only open wound that I still have the rest of them have dried up!!!!
Ok blogger is up to its old tricks and it will not let me download the picture so I will try again later. Sorry
So I would like some feedback on this please! (But first realize I know that God has this all under control and that maybe while I am telling you all this I will get the answer that I need!) Silly I know but it is nice to have someone to throw it out there to and just be like NOW thanks I feel better!
So here goes:
I applied for this job back in June. On June 14th they asked me to come in for an interview, so I did. It went well and she said that they needed to get with the head doctor and set up a time for the applicants to meet with the nurses and the doctors. She asked me to give her a week and then she would give me a call. Ok fine I understand and that is reasonable, right.
One week goes by and I hear nothing, so I figured since I did not get the job since I really was not qualified for the position and I new that. Two weeks went by and they asked me to come in on July 7th for another interview and I said yes. I was very excited and then we get called to go home because of Ray's grandpa. So I called them and explained to them the situation and she told me not to worry and we rescheduled the appointment. The interview went very well again and I thought that I had gotten the position and yet I walked away not knowing anything.
I waited and then the following week I call them back and I was told that she thought that I did get the position but she would call me back with more information. The following day they ask me to come in for another interview with the office manager. Which I did and by the way that was a waste of my time, she honestly just wanted to meet me! No joke that is what she told me!! She then told me that they needed to fill the position as soon as possible and she would call me in two days to let me know either way. I said great! That's when I found out that I got the job, which was last Wednesday. She said she would call Friday with more details. I get a call from there human resource department with the hospital on Thursday and I faxed her the appropriate paperwork, then nothing. No call on Friday no call on Monday, remember they were the ones who said they need to fill this position like now, yet they don't seem to be doing this!
I called them and asked what was up (in a very professional way) and she told me that they have a salary for me and we talked about that and then she tells me I need to wait for human resources to call me again!!!!
I could not be wrong but it does not sound like this office is run very well. But in the mean time I have another interview with another doctor's office on Thursday just in case! LOL.
So is this God shutting that door and opening up another one or is He just having fun watching me freak out and not letting go of the control and letting him deal with it?!? I know I am mess. PLEASE CLARITY WOULD BE GREATLY APPRECIATED!!! Or if you would just like to laugh at me and say poor little girl, she is just so precious! Stroke my hair and hug me! That would be ok too!!!!
Update on my boo boo's I am doing much better. I am not as sore as I was and here is a picture of the only open wound that I still have the rest of them have dried up!!!!
Ok blogger is up to its old tricks and it will not let me download the picture so I will try again later. Sorry
Monday, July 31, 2006
Make them go away please
Real quick does anyone remember how to get on the list so that they (telemarketers)can't call you anymore? Wasn't it called the "no call list"? I am so tired of the constant calls that I am getting GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!! LOL
Saturday, July 29, 2006
I did it this time
First Things First
I have been meaning to send a special thanks to my friend, Shionge, in Singapore for the lovely gifts that she sent us! We love them and the magnet is placed on the refrigerator with all of the others! So again Thank you. Here is a picture of the gifts! My son is so excited to see the candy!
Ok I meant to tell you all this Saturday evening but I just did not have it in me! LOL. I wrecked Ray's motorcycle Saturday!!! We are ok. I got road burn on my left shoulder, forearm, hip, knee and ankle! Yes I slid across the road. Ray went over my head and landed in the grass. Don't worry I caught the bike with my leg. I now know what the weight of the bike feels like. LOL. Personal note: riding his bike is what we were fighting over the other day! See I told you it was silly. I want to learn how to ride the bike but I am afraid of it at the same time. I get scared when I turn the bike because it feels like it is falling and I can not keep the bike upright, which is what happened when we wrecked. I was turning onto the main road and that happened and I freaked out the clutch popped and we well we wrecked. I was so scared! Not to mention how bad it hurt! I felt my skin tear away from my arm. Can we say ouch!!!!!!! I did not cry but I did feel like I was going to get very sick. I did not but wow it was bad for awhile. We were about an hour from the house so I had no choice but to get back on the back of the bike so we could go home.
Ray was good about it! He was not mad, just glad I was OK. But the bike,which is only 6 months old, has the following damage: broken mirror on the left side, bent handle bars, messed up gas tank, and a little body damage on the side and I somehow broke his foot peg!!!!!
This is the worst part of the day: On the way home I was talking to God and it hit me like a ton of bricks, I always pray for safety, grace and mercy, and for Him to send angels of protection to be with us! This time I forgot to do so!!!! Yep the one time I forgot and I wrecked!!!!!!
Tonight when Ray gets home from work I will take pictures of the bike and of me so you can see my BOO Boos!
On a brighter note I am on day 38 without Nathan and he calls me three to four times a day to talk to me. He now says: "mommy are you ok? How is your arm? Is your knee ok?" He is so worried about me! It is so cute. But then it follows with something like what happened last night! "Ok good, mom we were all talking and Sami, his cousin, and Aunt Diane, and Punkin said that it would be ok after Sami spends two weeks here with me that I can go to Cleveland, Ohio to spend a week with them! Then come back to grandma's and spend like three days with them then I can come home, so can I please go spend time with them. Aunt Diane says she will take good care of me and you can call her if you want to!!! PLEASSSSSSSSSSSSE mom I really want to do this!" A little background on the family is that my Aunt Diane just lost her husband to cancer, they had been together since she was 14 years old. She is now in her mid 40's. She has 2 daughters and 4 granddaughters who love to go to my parents house to play! I know she would take good care of Nathan and believe it or not they all think that I am over protective of him and will not let him go! Which is true, he can stay at my parents but I freak if it is anywhere else. LOL. My mom says "it would mean a lot to them if you would let him go up there, they already have everything planned out" So yes he is going to Cleveland for a week!!!!!!!
I am going absolutely crazy here. I miss my son but at the same time I am glad he is having so much fun! I keep telling myself if he was here we would be paying 300.00 for one week of camp! yep, ouch that is outrageous I know... And he is having so much more fun there and its free. I will be honest and say that it has been very nice to have all of this alone time with Ray. When Nathan is here we do not spend any time without him so with that in mind I have fallen in love with Ray all over again this summer!
I have been meaning to send a special thanks to my friend, Shionge, in Singapore for the lovely gifts that she sent us! We love them and the magnet is placed on the refrigerator with all of the others! So again Thank you. Here is a picture of the gifts! My son is so excited to see the candy!
Ok I meant to tell you all this Saturday evening but I just did not have it in me! LOL. I wrecked Ray's motorcycle Saturday!!! We are ok. I got road burn on my left shoulder, forearm, hip, knee and ankle! Yes I slid across the road. Ray went over my head and landed in the grass. Don't worry I caught the bike with my leg. I now know what the weight of the bike feels like. LOL. Personal note: riding his bike is what we were fighting over the other day! See I told you it was silly. I want to learn how to ride the bike but I am afraid of it at the same time. I get scared when I turn the bike because it feels like it is falling and I can not keep the bike upright, which is what happened when we wrecked. I was turning onto the main road and that happened and I freaked out the clutch popped and we well we wrecked. I was so scared! Not to mention how bad it hurt! I felt my skin tear away from my arm. Can we say ouch!!!!!!! I did not cry but I did feel like I was going to get very sick. I did not but wow it was bad for awhile. We were about an hour from the house so I had no choice but to get back on the back of the bike so we could go home.
Ray was good about it! He was not mad, just glad I was OK. But the bike,which is only 6 months old, has the following damage: broken mirror on the left side, bent handle bars, messed up gas tank, and a little body damage on the side and I somehow broke his foot peg!!!!!
This is the worst part of the day: On the way home I was talking to God and it hit me like a ton of bricks, I always pray for safety, grace and mercy, and for Him to send angels of protection to be with us! This time I forgot to do so!!!! Yep the one time I forgot and I wrecked!!!!!!
Tonight when Ray gets home from work I will take pictures of the bike and of me so you can see my BOO Boos!
On a brighter note I am on day 38 without Nathan and he calls me three to four times a day to talk to me. He now says: "mommy are you ok? How is your arm? Is your knee ok?" He is so worried about me! It is so cute. But then it follows with something like what happened last night! "Ok good, mom we were all talking and Sami, his cousin, and Aunt Diane, and Punkin said that it would be ok after Sami spends two weeks here with me that I can go to Cleveland, Ohio to spend a week with them! Then come back to grandma's and spend like three days with them then I can come home, so can I please go spend time with them. Aunt Diane says she will take good care of me and you can call her if you want to!!! PLEASSSSSSSSSSSSE mom I really want to do this!" A little background on the family is that my Aunt Diane just lost her husband to cancer, they had been together since she was 14 years old. She is now in her mid 40's. She has 2 daughters and 4 granddaughters who love to go to my parents house to play! I know she would take good care of Nathan and believe it or not they all think that I am over protective of him and will not let him go! Which is true, he can stay at my parents but I freak if it is anywhere else. LOL. My mom says "it would mean a lot to them if you would let him go up there, they already have everything planned out" So yes he is going to Cleveland for a week!!!!!!!
I am going absolutely crazy here. I miss my son but at the same time I am glad he is having so much fun! I keep telling myself if he was here we would be paying 300.00 for one week of camp! yep, ouch that is outrageous I know... And he is having so much more fun there and its free. I will be honest and say that it has been very nice to have all of this alone time with Ray. When Nathan is here we do not spend any time without him so with that in mind I have fallen in love with Ray all over again this summer!
Friday, July 28, 2006
I love flowers!
Well ladies I told you that Ray was very good at getting "the little things", well yesterday was very hard for me. I was faced with a something that just knocked me over and I panicked. I emailed him to let him know what was going on while he was at work and then I did my crying and praying, which I do not believe God responds very well too! LOL. I see Him saying "you do your little temper tantrum and when you calm down I will talk to you!" I hate/love that! LOL. So anyway five hours later Ray comes home from work, he did his normal routine, take off his helmet, say hello to Bo, the dog, then give me a kiss, I was on the verge of tears again so I do what I do when I get like that I get busy! I went into the bedroom to fold the laundry and he followed me and when I turned around he had a dozen of roses waiting for me!
Here they are!
Aren't they pretty! I do not know if you can see it or not but I like to collect the willow tree figures and that is the mother and son that I got for easter thanks to Ray!
The flowers may not of made the problem go away but it sure put a smile on my face!!!
Buy the way the problem was solved today God is so good! I needed to just breathe and relax and know that God was taking care of me. He just needed me to butt out!
Here they are!
Aren't they pretty! I do not know if you can see it or not but I like to collect the willow tree figures and that is the mother and son that I got for easter thanks to Ray!
The flowers may not of made the problem go away but it sure put a smile on my face!!!
Buy the way the problem was solved today God is so good! I needed to just breathe and relax and know that God was taking care of me. He just needed me to butt out!
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
Its been a long day
I really do not know how I got the rest of this blog to be underlined so sorry for the mess up!
I went to bed last night in the arms of the man that I love and was very happy then this morning I awoke to the worst headache you could ever imagine! LOL. Ladies I have had a sinus migraine all day long, It hurts to touch the right side of my head and not to mention the fact if I try to focus on anything for too long then I start to see like 4 of the image!!! It has been such a long day! I have tried medicine, food, sleep, Ray bless his heart, even rubbed my head for me for an hour today while he was here on his lunch break. He says he loves me and only me. He is so sweet, I am really lucky I have one of those guys who gets the small things he is so good at that kind of stuff. He even sends me love text messages all the time. I then found out that I do not have any hot water. Our landlord has not paid the oil bill so we do not get hot water until sometime tomorrow, hopefully!
Ray is on duty tonight so I have the house to myself. I have tried to relax as much as possible. I took Ray his dinner and spent some time with him in the barricks. I do not know if I will ever get used to the military life. LOL.
I wanted to thank you all for the words of encouragement! I spoke with the office manager of the job position that I applied for and she told me that they were very interested and that she would call me by Friday to let me know. Again I really want this job! And since I am counting I am on day 33 without Nathan...
I wanted to talk a little bit about what God has been teaching me lately. He is stretching me! He has once again taken me out of my little comfort zone and placed me somewhere that I am uncomfortable. Two years ago I hated this place and now I love this place, this is when He shows you so much. You not only learn how much you have changed but you see things in you that you did not know where there. Prime example: the disagreement with Ray, granted this is two sided but this is what I have learned about myself because you truly can not look at what this did for him (Ray) you have to be willing to take every situation in life and see if and how it applies to you. Did that make sense? See there was this person in my past who I cared a great deal about and we had this one argument all the time, over his motorcycle. Stupid I know but work with here. I had promised myself that I would never let anyone make me feel like he did with that situation ever again. I never thought that Ray would do that to me and I let my guard down and was putting all my trust in him (depending on him etc.) That night when we were out on his bike Ray asked me something and when I told him no his remark was the same that my past had said! Ray had no idea at the time of this situation, and I just froze, I couldn't breathe. My past had confronted my present! Not good for me! LOL. I could not breath, I felt myself shutting down, I did not want him to touch me nor did I want to talk to him! It was the worst feeling ever, now in the past I would of just left that and put it on a shelf and just ignore it but now God doesn't let me. I felt like I had no choice I had to deal with this. STRETCHING!!!!!!!!!! It hurt so much, but as I prayed and I spoke the words to a friend I said to her am I blaming Ray for what happened in my past? Or do I have a right to be upset with him? Or is it both? And if so how do I get past this I see my past every time I look at him? Crazy right!!! No we do this all time and most of us do not even realize what is happening! After I spilled my guts to my friend she just laughed at me and said UHMMM did you need me? Because you just had a whole conversation without me and I think you got your answer! Its funny how that works. So I had to talk to God one more time and asked Him for grace to tell this to Ray and not take it out on him. I did have that talk with Ray and God gave me the words to tell Ray my story and the funny thing is when I was finished I felt whole and I knew God healed me while talking to Ray!
God is so cool!!
I went to bed last night in the arms of the man that I love and was very happy then this morning I awoke to the worst headache you could ever imagine! LOL. Ladies I have had a sinus migraine all day long, It hurts to touch the right side of my head and not to mention the fact if I try to focus on anything for too long then I start to see like 4 of the image!!! It has been such a long day! I have tried medicine, food, sleep, Ray bless his heart, even rubbed my head for me for an hour today while he was here on his lunch break. He says he loves me and only me. He is so sweet, I am really lucky I have one of those guys who gets the small things he is so good at that kind of stuff. He even sends me love text messages all the time. I then found out that I do not have any hot water. Our landlord has not paid the oil bill so we do not get hot water until sometime tomorrow, hopefully!
Ray is on duty tonight so I have the house to myself. I have tried to relax as much as possible. I took Ray his dinner and spent some time with him in the barricks. I do not know if I will ever get used to the military life. LOL.
I wanted to thank you all for the words of encouragement! I spoke with the office manager of the job position that I applied for and she told me that they were very interested and that she would call me by Friday to let me know. Again I really want this job! And since I am counting I am on day 33 without Nathan...
I wanted to talk a little bit about what God has been teaching me lately. He is stretching me! He has once again taken me out of my little comfort zone and placed me somewhere that I am uncomfortable. Two years ago I hated this place and now I love this place, this is when He shows you so much. You not only learn how much you have changed but you see things in you that you did not know where there. Prime example: the disagreement with Ray, granted this is two sided but this is what I have learned about myself because you truly can not look at what this did for him (Ray) you have to be willing to take every situation in life and see if and how it applies to you. Did that make sense? See there was this person in my past who I cared a great deal about and we had this one argument all the time, over his motorcycle. Stupid I know but work with here. I had promised myself that I would never let anyone make me feel like he did with that situation ever again. I never thought that Ray would do that to me and I let my guard down and was putting all my trust in him (depending on him etc.) That night when we were out on his bike Ray asked me something and when I told him no his remark was the same that my past had said! Ray had no idea at the time of this situation, and I just froze, I couldn't breathe. My past had confronted my present! Not good for me! LOL. I could not breath, I felt myself shutting down, I did not want him to touch me nor did I want to talk to him! It was the worst feeling ever, now in the past I would of just left that and put it on a shelf and just ignore it but now God doesn't let me. I felt like I had no choice I had to deal with this. STRETCHING!!!!!!!!!! It hurt so much, but as I prayed and I spoke the words to a friend I said to her am I blaming Ray for what happened in my past? Or do I have a right to be upset with him? Or is it both? And if so how do I get past this I see my past every time I look at him? Crazy right!!! No we do this all time and most of us do not even realize what is happening! After I spilled my guts to my friend she just laughed at me and said UHMMM did you need me? Because you just had a whole conversation without me and I think you got your answer! Its funny how that works. So I had to talk to God one more time and asked Him for grace to tell this to Ray and not take it out on him. I did have that talk with Ray and God gave me the words to tell Ray my story and the funny thing is when I was finished I felt whole and I knew God healed me while talking to Ray!
God is so cool!!
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
I'm alive!!!!!!
I'm alive! It has been crazy here! I have been busy doing absolutely nothing and I can't stand that! I am sure we all know what that feels like! I am a little frustrated right now in so many areas of my life, especially in my relationship and I need to vent so please disregard most of what I am about to say!
First thing: Ray and I have been arguing over something totally stupid so for the last couple of days there has been silence in this house.... I know this will pass and everyone goes through this but this is the stupidest argument ever!!! I know that is sad right! LOL By the way there is peace in the house now!) He's finally stopped argueing with me.
Second thing: I am on day 32 without my son and he doesn't want to come home yet!!! He does want me to bring the dog up to my parents for him but doesn't want to come home! GRRRRR!!!!! I know that I am his mom and we could just go and get him but he is having such a good time with my dad, my dad has just retired and he finally gets to spend his time with Nate and my dad is loving this. So not only do I cheat Nathan out of spending time with all the family but my dad misses out too! I try to remember that when I was a kid we had so much fun there and I listen to his stories and he is doing the same things that I did when I was his age which is good and if he was here he could not do any of that. Not to mention the fact that we live right dab in the middle of a big city and well our yard is ok fine we do not have one!!!!!LOL How can I blame him for not wanting to come back right now. But I do know that he misses me and he tells me that he loves us every night before he goes to bed!
Third thing: I do not have a church here and I can not seem to find one that I like, meaning somewhere that feels like home. Which means that I do not have any friends that I can touch and relate to on a daily basis. If that makes any sense to any of you!
Fourth thing: I still do not have a job! This is so frustrating and sometimes nice! I went on my third interview today with the office that I had told you about last month, the one that I liked but was not qualified for. They still have not filled the position, and today she told me that she would contact me by Friday to let me know one way or the other! Please pray about this I really want this job!
Fifth thing: This is the last one I promise! I have a friend back in Florida who I love dearly but she does not like Ray for several reason of her own, her ex was a marine, so she has a bad taste to start with and the big one Ray believes in God but does not go to church all the time! So when we started dating and I was not there all the time for my friend she started to resent our relationship even more. It came down to her asking me to choose between the two of them. Which I told her I would not do that to her and was amazed that she would even ask bla bla bla bla do we see where this is going? Now that I have moved this is even worse! Do I just stop contact with this person or what? So confused am I!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok Now that I have spilled my guts and sound like such a baby! Please understand that I know that God has this all under control and trust me we have had a few "arguments" over all of this too and He just loves me and laughs and says "SHE'S SO PRECIOUS"..... lol. Ray and I fell in love fast, within the first few months of us seeing each other, and that is what is going to make us last.
First thing: Ray and I have been arguing over something totally stupid so for the last couple of days there has been silence in this house.... I know this will pass and everyone goes through this but this is the stupidest argument ever!!! I know that is sad right! LOL By the way there is peace in the house now!) He's finally stopped argueing with me.
Second thing: I am on day 32 without my son and he doesn't want to come home yet!!! He does want me to bring the dog up to my parents for him but doesn't want to come home! GRRRRR!!!!! I know that I am his mom and we could just go and get him but he is having such a good time with my dad, my dad has just retired and he finally gets to spend his time with Nate and my dad is loving this. So not only do I cheat Nathan out of spending time with all the family but my dad misses out too! I try to remember that when I was a kid we had so much fun there and I listen to his stories and he is doing the same things that I did when I was his age which is good and if he was here he could not do any of that. Not to mention the fact that we live right dab in the middle of a big city and well our yard is ok fine we do not have one!!!!!LOL How can I blame him for not wanting to come back right now. But I do know that he misses me and he tells me that he loves us every night before he goes to bed!
Third thing: I do not have a church here and I can not seem to find one that I like, meaning somewhere that feels like home. Which means that I do not have any friends that I can touch and relate to on a daily basis. If that makes any sense to any of you!
Fourth thing: I still do not have a job! This is so frustrating and sometimes nice! I went on my third interview today with the office that I had told you about last month, the one that I liked but was not qualified for. They still have not filled the position, and today she told me that she would contact me by Friday to let me know one way or the other! Please pray about this I really want this job!
Fifth thing: This is the last one I promise! I have a friend back in Florida who I love dearly but she does not like Ray for several reason of her own, her ex was a marine, so she has a bad taste to start with and the big one Ray believes in God but does not go to church all the time! So when we started dating and I was not there all the time for my friend she started to resent our relationship even more. It came down to her asking me to choose between the two of them. Which I told her I would not do that to her and was amazed that she would even ask bla bla bla bla do we see where this is going? Now that I have moved this is even worse! Do I just stop contact with this person or what? So confused am I!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok Now that I have spilled my guts and sound like such a baby! Please understand that I know that God has this all under control and trust me we have had a few "arguments" over all of this too and He just loves me and laughs and says "SHE'S SO PRECIOUS"..... lol. Ray and I fell in love fast, within the first few months of us seeing each other, and that is what is going to make us last.
Thursday, July 20, 2006
I'm back!
Hello everyone! We made it back home safely after a very extended emergency leave. I do not know if you all know this yet but Ray's grandpa passed away on July 09,2006.
He was saved and we now know that he is sitting up above enjoying the view very much! I can honestly say that I did not know that man very well at all. We both had a wonderful time considering everything that happened.
By the way I am now going on day 27 without my son and I miss him so much and he still does not want to come home! How can I compete with the woods and playing with the boys! LOL
He was saved and we now know that he is sitting up above enjoying the view very much! I can honestly say that I did not know that man very well at all. We both had a wonderful time considering everything that happened.
By the way I am now going on day 27 without my son and I miss him so much and he still does not want to come home! How can I compete with the woods and playing with the boys! LOL
Friday, June 30, 2006
Disregard previous post!
Hello all! Ray's grandpa just told the family he does not want to continue his kidney dialysis he is finished. The doctor's have given him only 10 days to live so we are rushing to Florida to be with him! Please keep there family in your prayers as I know you will!
Love you guys! Talk to you as soon as I can
Enjoy your holiday weekend
God Bless
Love you guys! Talk to you as soon as I can
Enjoy your holiday weekend
God Bless
Its the start of the 96!!
First I just wanted to let you know I got Nathan's pictures to post! So Yeah you can now see his little clothes! By the way the blanket that they are on was the blanket my mom brought me home from the hospital in! So scroll on down and look at how tiny he was!
Update on Nathan and his fighting cousin! LOL. They of course are fine and have forgotten all about the fight! Kids! Oh by the way my nephew loves me and I am still his favorite aunt. (I am his only one by the way!)
Well if you are military you understand the "96". Ray has the next few days off and does not have to be until the 6th so we are making another trip! I am sad to say it is without Nathan
But Ray and I need a little time too! We are making a trip to Georgia to see his sister, his dad and others are coming up for the week as well! Pray for me that this will go over easy. Ray and his sister are fighting nonstop lately and to be honest I am not looking forward to this trip! I suggested that we stay in a cabin or camp so that they will have some space between each other, but he wants to use that as leverage (I think I spelled that wrong). Why is it that when you fight with your siblings you instantly start fighting as if you were kids again? Bottom line the whole situation is stressin' me out!!!!! I will keep you posted on this! That drained me just to write that! LOL...
But on a brighter note I will be spending time out on the boat, water skiing and knee boarding and going to Smoke Mountain and so on! There are so many things I am looking forward to doing! So keep positive right! Not to mention the fire works! I love the fireworks
Update on Nathan and his fighting cousin! LOL. They of course are fine and have forgotten all about the fight! Kids! Oh by the way my nephew loves me and I am still his favorite aunt. (I am his only one by the way!)
Well if you are military you understand the "96". Ray has the next few days off and does not have to be until the 6th so we are making another trip! I am sad to say it is without Nathan
But Ray and I need a little time too! We are making a trip to Georgia to see his sister, his dad and others are coming up for the week as well! Pray for me that this will go over easy. Ray and his sister are fighting nonstop lately and to be honest I am not looking forward to this trip! I suggested that we stay in a cabin or camp so that they will have some space between each other, but he wants to use that as leverage (I think I spelled that wrong). Why is it that when you fight with your siblings you instantly start fighting as if you were kids again? Bottom line the whole situation is stressin' me out!!!!! I will keep you posted on this! That drained me just to write that! LOL...But on a brighter note I will be spending time out on the boat, water skiing and knee boarding and going to Smoke Mountain and so on! There are so many things I am looking forward to doing! So keep positive right! Not to mention the fire works! I love the fireworks
Thursday, June 29, 2006
I miss my son
Ok we are working on day 6 without Nathan and I miss him terribly! I try to be strong and let him stay at my parents as long as he wants. He doesn't get to see our family very often. This is his time to spend time with our some 150 family members, and that is no joke there is really that many of us! We are a huge family!!!!
BUT I MISS HIM AND WANT HIM HOME
Or is this me I am not sure but I am not having a good morning with this! LOL
I'm sure that it helps when he called me last night and says,
Nate: "Mommy will you come and get me please, I do not want to be here!
Me: Why is that buddy what's wrong?
Nate: Erik is always telling me what to do and I am tried of it! I can't take it anymore and Grandma believes him and not me! I do not want to be here anymore!
Me: Nathan! Erik is your cousin and you need to try to figure out a way to get along with him! He loves you and you know that
Nate: "I really do not care! and if he is gonna be that mean to me all the time then he doesn't deserve my love!"
After I tried to pick my mouth up off the floor! I had to tell an already crushed little boy to get rid of the attitude he was having and to let me talk to his grandmother.
It ended up being that the boys were fighting over bubble gum with the neighbor boys! My nephew is older than Nathan and he tries to make sure everyone knows this so there is no confusion and that creates alot of trouble and no fun for my parents! I convinced Nathan to go for a ride with my dad on the 4-wheeler so they could spend some time alone and then things would ease over! I feel sorry for my parents because they do not diffuse these situations very well, which leaves me trying to do it from the phone! Yes my parents are push overs, and they have no intentions on changing! And of course that leaves me being the mean mommy and Aunt in the kids eyes! If I could only count the times I have heard from Erik "gosh Aunt Shelle can be so mean, I'm glad she's not my mom!" LOL. But who does he call when he needs help his mean old aunt! LOL.....
I am sure that this helped me last night too. Remember I had told you that I went through some old stuff at my parents house when I was up there! Well I found Nathan's old baby stuff that I wanted to keep! Now that he is 10 years old and seeing all of his stuff I want another baby so bad! But I have some pictures to share with you! They are of 2 outfits that he used to wear, they are only sleepers but they were so cute on him!
Nathan only weighed 3lbs and was 15 inches long when he was born, so nothing fit him! I do mean nothing! This is actually a cabbage patch kid outfit, remember those! It had so much pink in it but it was the only thing I could find that would not swallow him whole!
The next picture is what he wore when he was 5 months old... That is still a 0-3 month outfit that you are looking at!
And of course this is Nathan now! You would never believe that he started out so small would you!!
Ok I give up on these pictures! I am trying to download them and for some reason it will not let me is anyone else having this problem today or is it just me?
I will try to post the pictures later!
BUT I MISS HIM AND WANT HIM HOME
Or is this me I am not sure but I am not having a good morning with this! LOLI'm sure that it helps when he called me last night and says,
Nate: "Mommy will you come and get me please, I do not want to be here!
Me: Why is that buddy what's wrong?
Nate: Erik is always telling me what to do and I am tried of it! I can't take it anymore and Grandma believes him and not me! I do not want to be here anymore!
Me: Nathan! Erik is your cousin and you need to try to figure out a way to get along with him! He loves you and you know that
Nate: "I really do not care! and if he is gonna be that mean to me all the time then he doesn't deserve my love!"
After I tried to pick my mouth up off the floor! I had to tell an already crushed little boy to get rid of the attitude he was having and to let me talk to his grandmother.
It ended up being that the boys were fighting over bubble gum with the neighbor boys! My nephew is older than Nathan and he tries to make sure everyone knows this so there is no confusion and that creates alot of trouble and no fun for my parents! I convinced Nathan to go for a ride with my dad on the 4-wheeler so they could spend some time alone and then things would ease over! I feel sorry for my parents because they do not diffuse these situations very well, which leaves me trying to do it from the phone! Yes my parents are push overs, and they have no intentions on changing! And of course that leaves me being the mean mommy and Aunt in the kids eyes! If I could only count the times I have heard from Erik "gosh Aunt Shelle can be so mean, I'm glad she's not my mom!" LOL. But who does he call when he needs help his mean old aunt! LOL.....
I am sure that this helped me last night too. Remember I had told you that I went through some old stuff at my parents house when I was up there! Well I found Nathan's old baby stuff that I wanted to keep! Now that he is 10 years old and seeing all of his stuff I want another baby so bad! But I have some pictures to share with you! They are of 2 outfits that he used to wear, they are only sleepers but they were so cute on him!
Nathan only weighed 3lbs and was 15 inches long when he was born, so nothing fit him! I do mean nothing! This is actually a cabbage patch kid outfit, remember those! It had so much pink in it but it was the only thing I could find that would not swallow him whole!
The next picture is what he wore when he was 5 months old... That is still a 0-3 month outfit that you are looking at!
And of course this is Nathan now! You would never believe that he started out so small would you!!
Ok I give up on these pictures! I am trying to download them and for some reason it will not let me is anyone else having this problem today or is it just me?
I will try to post the pictures later!
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Update
Thank you all for the prayers and comments! I went to the job interview and they hired me on the spot. I couldn't believe it. Then while driving I got a call for another job interview and since I was in the area they asked me to stop in and I did and now I have two jobs. LOL. Then when I got home I had two messages from doctor's offices and I have two interviews for next week as well..... I talked to Ray last night about the decisons I needed to make and my choices are stay with one that I already have or go for the doctor's office position, which is what I want, but the down side is if I take this position then we can not go anywhere for Christmas, and to my surprise he was ok with it. So I am trying for the doctor's office next week!!!! I know it sounds sad but this was a true conversation!!!!! LOL...
Seriously I will tell our story later on but for now I think you get the picture!!!!!
Seriously I will tell our story later on but for now I think you get the picture!!!!!
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Monday, June 26, 2006
I need a vacation from my vacation
Hello everyone! I know that it has been a while sense I last wrote but I was at my parents house and you may not believe this but they do not have a computer! I know it is hard to believe that there is still a house without one but it is true! LOL. I love my parents...
A little background on me is I moved away from my family 4 years ago to start over just my son and I. It wasn't easy but I had been talking to God about this and I knew this was something I needed to do. I thought that I would learn to stand on my own and it would show me that I was a strong person no matter what anyone else said.. Well I learned that and so much more! I grew mentally, physically, and spiritually as well. I tell you that so that I can tell you this. Every time I come home and I drive through those mountains God shows me just how much I have changed!
You know God has changed you and that you are moving forward and not backwards, then you go home and you truly see how you have changed! Those of you who are laughing right now know exactly what I am saying! Its not easy and its not funny at the time but man the reward is so worth everything that you walked through.
Over the years I have grown to love the time I spend in the mountains which is what I thought I was getting away from. God has such a funny sense of humor sometimes... This is the view on my trip!
I had a very good visit with friends and family. I spent some time with my dad going through my stuff in the building, good for them bad for me, now I need to find some where to put it here! LOL. I went to lunch with my mom and her friend who is like a aunt to me. And as you know I spent some well needed time with my good friend Charla. We took our kids to her families camp and then to Audra Park. This is the first time I have gotten Nathan to swim in a river since he visited Louisanna and was introduced to alligators in rivers! Yep you do the math, he was terrified of swimming in rivers after that. So 7 years later he tries again. LOL. Here are some of those pictures!!
A little background on me is I moved away from my family 4 years ago to start over just my son and I. It wasn't easy but I had been talking to God about this and I knew this was something I needed to do. I thought that I would learn to stand on my own and it would show me that I was a strong person no matter what anyone else said.. Well I learned that and so much more! I grew mentally, physically, and spiritually as well. I tell you that so that I can tell you this. Every time I come home and I drive through those mountains God shows me just how much I have changed!
You know God has changed you and that you are moving forward and not backwards, then you go home and you truly see how you have changed! Those of you who are laughing right now know exactly what I am saying! Its not easy and its not funny at the time but man the reward is so worth everything that you walked through.
Over the years I have grown to love the time I spend in the mountains which is what I thought I was getting away from. God has such a funny sense of humor sometimes... This is the view on my trip!
I had a very good visit with friends and family. I spent some time with my dad going through my stuff in the building, good for them bad for me, now I need to find some where to put it here! LOL. I went to lunch with my mom and her friend who is like a aunt to me. And as you know I spent some well needed time with my good friend Charla. We took our kids to her families camp and then to Audra Park. This is the first time I have gotten Nathan to swim in a river since he visited Louisanna and was introduced to alligators in rivers! Yep you do the math, he was terrified of swimming in rivers after that. So 7 years later he tries again. LOL. Here are some of those pictures!!
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