Friday, June 30, 2006

Disregard previous post!

Hello all! Ray's grandpa just told the family he does not want to continue his kidney dialysis he is finished. The doctor's have given him only 10 days to live so we are rushing to Florida to be with him! Please keep there family in your prayers as I know you will!

Love you guys! Talk to you as soon as I can

Enjoy your holiday weekend

God Bless

Its the start of the 96!!

First I just wanted to let you know I got Nathan's pictures to post! So Yeah you can now see his little clothes! By the way the blanket that they are on was the blanket my mom brought me home from the hospital in! So scroll on down and look at how tiny he was!

Update on Nathan and his fighting cousin! LOL. They of course are fine and have forgotten all about the fight! Kids! Oh by the way my nephew loves me and I am still his favorite aunt. (I am his only one by the way!)

Well if you are military you understand the "96". Ray has the next few days off and does not have to be until the 6th so we are making another trip! I am sad to say it is without Nathan Sad But Ray and I need a little time too! We are making a trip to Georgia to see his sister, his dad and others are coming up for the week as well! Pray for me that this will go over easy. Ray and his sister are fighting nonstop lately and to be honest I am not looking forward to this trip! I suggested that we stay in a cabin or camp so that they will have some space between each other, but he wants to use that as leverage (I think I spelled that wrong). Why is it that when you fight with your siblings you instantly start fighting as if you were kids again? Bottom line the whole situation is stressin' me out!!!!! I will keep you posted on this! That drained me just to write that! LOL...

But on a brighter note I will be spending time out on the boat, water skiing and knee boarding and going to Smoke Mountain and so on! There are so many things I am looking forward to doing! So keep positive right! Not to mention the fire works! I love the fireworksFireworks

Thursday, June 29, 2006

I miss my son

Ok we are working on day 6 without Nathan and I miss him terribly! I try to be strong and let him stay at my parents as long as he wants. He doesn't get to see our family very often. This is his time to spend time with our some 150 family members, and that is no joke there is really that many of us! We are a huge family!!!!

BUT I MISS HIM AND WANT HIM HOMECrying Into Tissue Or is this me I am not sure but I am not having a good morning with this! LOLPouty

I'm sure that it helps when he called me last night and says,

Nate: "Mommy will you come and get me please, I do not want to be here!

Me: Why is that buddy what's wrong?

Nate: Erik is always telling me what to do and I am tried of it! I can't take it anymore and Grandma believes him and not me! I do not want to be here anymore!

Me: Nathan! Erik is your cousin and you need to try to figure out a way to get along with him! He loves you and you know that

Nate: "I really do not care! and if he is gonna be that mean to me all the time then he doesn't deserve my love!"

After I tried to pick my mouth up off the floor! I had to tell an already crushed little boy to get rid of the attitude he was having and to let me talk to his grandmother.

It ended up being that the boys were fighting over bubble gum with the neighbor boys! My nephew is older than Nathan and he tries to make sure everyone knows this so there is no confusion and that creates alot of trouble and no fun for my parents! I convinced Nathan to go for a ride with my dad on the 4-wheeler so they could spend some time alone and then things would ease over! I feel sorry for my parents because they do not diffuse these situations very well, which leaves me trying to do it from the phone! Yes my parents are push overs, and they have no intentions on changing! And of course that leaves me being the mean mommy and Aunt in the kids eyes! If I could only count the times I have heard from Erik "gosh Aunt Shelle can be so mean, I'm glad she's not my mom!" LOL. But who does he call when he needs help his mean old aunt! LOL.....

I am sure that this helped me last night too. Remember I had told you that I went through some old stuff at my parents house when I was up there! Well I found Nathan's old baby stuff that I wanted to keep! Now that he is 10 years old and seeing all of his stuff I want another baby so bad! But I have some pictures to share with you! They are of 2 outfits that he used to wear, they are only sleepers but they were so cute on him!


Nathan only weighed 3lbs and was 15 inches long when he was born, so nothing fit him! I do mean nothing! This is actually a cabbage patch kid outfit, remember those! It had so much pink in it but it was the only thing I could find that would not swallow him whole!



The next picture is what he wore when he was 5 months old... That is still a 0-3 month outfit that you are looking at!

And of course this is Nathan now! You would never believe that he started out so small would you!!

Ok I give up on these pictures! I am trying to download them and for some reason it will not let me is anyone else having this problem today or is it just me?

I will try to post the pictures later!

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Update

Thank you all for the prayers and comments! I went to the job interview and they hired me on the spot. I couldn't believe it. Then while driving I got a call for another job interview and since I was in the area they asked me to stop in and I did and now I have two jobs. LOL. Then when I got home I had two messages from doctor's offices and I have two interviews for next week as well..... I talked to Ray last night about the decisons I needed to make and my choices are stay with one that I already have or go for the doctor's office position, which is what I want, but the down side is if I take this position then we can not go anywhere for Christmas, and to my surprise he was ok with it. So I am trying for the doctor's office next week!!!! I know it sounds sad but this was a true conversation!!!!! LOL...



Seriously I will tell our story later on but for now I think you get the picture!!!!!

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Monday, June 26, 2006

I need a vacation from my vacation

Hello everyone! I know that it has been a while sense I last wrote but I was at my parents house and you may not believe this but they do not have a computer! I know it is hard to believe that there is still a house without one but it is true! LOL. I love my parents...
A little background on me is I moved away from my family 4 years ago to start over just my son and I. It wasn't easy but I had been talking to God about this and I knew this was something I needed to do. I thought that I would learn to stand on my own and it would show me that I was a strong person no matter what anyone else said.. Well I learned that and so much more! I grew mentally, physically, and spiritually as well. I tell you that so that I can tell you this. Every time I come home and I drive through those mountains God shows me just how much I have changed!
You know God has changed you and that you are moving forward and not backwards, then you go home and you truly see how you have changed! Those of you who are laughing right now know exactly what I am saying! Its not easy and its not funny at the time but man the reward is so worth everything that you walked through.
Over the years I have grown to love the time I spend in the mountains which is what I thought I was getting away from. God has such a funny sense of humor sometimes... This is the view on my trip!
I had a very good visit with friends and family. I spent some time with my dad going through my stuff in the building, good for them bad for me, now I need to find some where to put it here! LOL. I went to lunch with my mom and her friend who is like a aunt to me. And as you know I spent some well needed time with my good friend Charla. We took our kids to her families camp and then to Audra Park. This is the first time I have gotten Nathan to swim in a river since he visited Louisanna and was introduced to alligators in rivers! Yep you do the math, he was terrified of swimming in rivers after that. So 7 years later he tries again. LOL. Here are some of those pictures!!

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Tackled IT!!!!!

I did it finally! I got my picture to appear so now you know what I look like! Courtney had asked Charla what I had looked like then I got to explain to Charla that my picture was not up because I could not figure it out! LOL. I know that is sad right! But she talked me through it. So Yeah! Here is the worst possible picture of Ray and I but it is the only one that I have on the computer as of now. I must tell you that Nathan took this picture of us from a chair, I think that is why I look like I have chubby cheeks! So he's not the best looking man that I've been with but that's my Marine.
This was taken after hours of us being outside on the slopes in Snow Shoe Mountain Resort in West Virginia. We had so much fun, we took Nathan up there for the weekend for a birthday present. He had been dying to go snow boarding. Since neither one of us had been skiing/snowboarding in such a long time we decided to let him try it and he LOVED IT. So yep you guessed it next year we will be making another trip up that way to go! LOL. What did I start? I will share more pictures of the trip at a later time.



Ok last week I had attempted to get Ray's CO2 tank filled and get the adapter that he needed for my tackle it Tuesday, well I got to drop it off and then they had to order the piece he needed. This is the completed project, so this weekend we are off to play with the paintball guns..... But first I must tell you that I am on my way to my parents house today! My son likes to go spend the summers out in the country with my parents so I try to make sure that happens every summer! He tells everyone that he is spending the whole summer with them, which ends up being a couple of weeks before he is crying to come home! LOL. God I love that boy! I am excited to see my parents, but the most exciting part is I am from the same town as Charla which means I will get to see my friend and we decided to go see our new friend Courtney who does not live that far away from our home town! So it is official we are starting a blogger reunion!!!!! Can't wait to see you girls!
And with that I will say I gotta go so I can hit the road!

Sunday, June 18, 2006

Prayer Request

HI.

Our trip to Washington, D.C.

Hello everyone! Thank you so much for all the comments We had so much fun.. I am so tired from the hours of walking.. But all worth the adventure! So let me tell you that we started off by leaving at 10 A.M. only to sit in traffic for 90 minutes and we only traveled 30 miles... Can you say frustrating!!! LOL. Ray has a little tolerance for traffic jams when there is no reason for one. So I spent that 90 minutes rubbing his neck just to relax him! LOL. I know that is sad, you can tell me that!! But we got there and we had such a wonderful time. Here are some of the pictures: This is by far my favorite view in the city. This is standing at the top of the Lincoln Memorial. I love this place, for some reason in the mist of the crowds, there is so much peace with him sitting behind you There he is, sitting so proud overlooking the city! I have no idea why I like this statue so much but I do.
I had told you early this week that Ray was going back out to the field, but that had changed for like the 15th time. The guys in his company that did go were all running around in groups, we caught up with one of his "paintball buddies" while we were there and finished the rest of the day with him! Sometimes it is hard to find people in the military that you want around your kids and I have been blessed with this person, he is such a good friend to Ray and is so good with Nathan. Nathan thinks that Mike is his own personal play gym...LOL This is the picture of all three of the boys looking to see if there were any of there family members on the Wall. They looked thru this book forever! LOL. It is funny to watch them with Nathan, he somehow becomes "one of the boys" and sometimes that scares me! While walking thru the park on our way back to our car we stopped to looked at a squirrel! Yep you heard me I said squirrel, I am from the mountains and I have seen all kinds of squirrels, white ones, brown ones, gray ones, but not a full black one! The park is full of them, we were so amazed by this. The little squirrel was trying to get food out of a baggy, and it was so funny to watch him try. At one point he had the bad stuck on top of his head and the little guy just freaked out! It was so funny! I know that sounds absolutely stupid to some but it was so cute!
This is his annoyed look, with "will you please leave me alone, I am trying to do something here" look!!!!!!

We honestly had so much fun. I did not know this but the very first marine Corp. building was in Washington D.C. it is called 8th and I. Because it was on the corner of 8th street and I street. Go figure! We looked for this building and trust me it is there but we could not find the dang building! We gave up! It was so funny! Maybe next time we will find it! LOL.

Saturday, June 17, 2006

We are going!

Hey everyone after weeks of trying we are now leaving to go to Washington, D.C. I am so excited. I will share pictures when I get back. Have a great weekend

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

It won't stop raining

Most of you do not know this but my son and I used to live in Florida, right in the panhandle. Which is hurricane capital of the south. LOL. I can say that because I was there. We were there for Ivan, Dennis, Katrina and many more in between those. That is where I met Ray. Since living there it has changed my thoughts on hurricanes, it is now a little bit more personal if you can understand that. When I started hearing about the very first named storm of the season appearing after only 9 days into the season, I got a little worried. Then I found myself going over the plan in my head: I need to go to the store and get some water and snacks and do I have batteries here? Then I laughed at myself because even tho we are still by the water we are now 15 hours away from that storm. Old habbits die hard I guess. Then later on that night we were watching the news and I saw that same look in his eyes that I had earlier today. After I few giggles from me I said to him. "Your thinking about the list aren't you?" It made it so funny when all he could say was "it feels wierd doesn't it!" But now I know what I hated about the little storms, is all the rain that comes after them. GRRRRRRRRR!!!!!! It has rained all day long and not just rain but its gonna flood kind of rain. Its so depressing.

Anyway on a lighter note, I had planned to do this for my tackle it tuesday post but it has not been completed yet so I decided to show what I have gotten done so far.. I have to go get the O2 tank filled and get it fixed. We have someone how got involved with a group of people who like to paintball fight. Which is kind of fun.. It kind of hurts too. LOL.. But the boys were putting so much money into the supplies that Ray decided to go to ebay and get his own tank then just fill up all the little tanks, It really works out to be cheaper in the long run. I hope so anyway! A-ha!

So here is a picture of the tank before now I would like to tell you that I have completed this task but since it is now Wednesday, you have guessed right, it has not been completed. The part is now in but since it is raining so hard they can not do anything with it because they have to do everything outside. So I am now waiting for them to call me back. I will keep you posted... Now just in case you are wondering, the big tub behind the tank is all of the guns and paintballs, then the air freshner can is there so I can get rid of the smell when they bring them inside. It smells so bad, its a mix between dirty marines and wet paint! LOL.

I thought that I would give you an update on Nathan. he is still grounded and it is killing him. (Today is the last day) But Ray just found out that he has to go back to the field on Friday for another week! (i'm not complaining, its only a week) But then the guys get liberty for the weekend because of the parade that is going on in D.C. this weekend. So yep you guessed it, I am drivign up Friday evening to get Ray then we are heading for D.C. for the weekend. So now we get to stay there the whole weekend plus see a parade. See God has a way of rewarding us! Even if it feels like punishment at first! Just thought I would share that with you all!

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

My Life

This is something that I found while looking through some of the ladies blogs. I unfortunately do not know who it was that did this first... So for that I am sorry!!! It was kind of fun and to be honest with you it was right on target! It was really easy and fast to do. All it is a list of maybe 25 questions and then it tells you what your scores mean... I scored high in the love category, which made Ray happy to know. LOL. Then I struggled with the finance department, but then again who doesn't that apply too. Hope you have fun with it!!



This Is My Life, Rated
Life:
7.4
Mind:
6.7
Body:
8
Spirit:
7.9
Friends/Family:
6
Love:
9.2
Finance:
5.2
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Monday, June 12, 2006

All in good timing

I have read some wonderful stories from some of the ladies in our family of bloggers and I am so sorry to tell you that the computer will not let me reply so when Satan steps in and tries to stop us we just step around him and move forward... So here goes.

Courtney---- I love your daughter's little story. I think you are doing an amazing job with your kids. I can not imagine what it must feel like to have your husband so far away from you. I admire what you have done and I only hope I can be half the woman you have been for your husband. I know that soon Ray will be leaving as well and I think listening to your stories has given me a dose of reality of what is to come for me. You truly are an inspiration.


Morning Glory---- I truly needed to hear your message this morning! You had me in tears complete with "Jesus bumps". God definitely has a way of getting our attention. Thank you, you have been a blessing.

I know that I am missing someone and I will think of it later I promise...

I know that I had told you all about my weekend plans and thankfully I am still learning how to deal with change and it is getting easier, which made this weekend so much easier for me.

The races were of course rained out, so we went to plan B. We took Nate out to dinner and then to see the new movie CARS. Which by the way is a must. It was so good.. We had a great time at the movies. It was really late when we got home and the trouble started at dinner, when I told my son, who I love very much do something and he chose to start with the back talking. This traveled with him for the rest of the evening. He tried to be in charge. You gotta love when they do this... His directions when we got home were to go brush his teeth and to get into bed, his remark to both of us was simply this, "NO I am gonna go watch that movie with you guys then I will go to bed!" I came unglued at this point. Lets just say he went to bed crying Friday night. (No hands were laid on him! LOL) He just chose not to let it go at that, he decided that he would get up out of bed and come and tell us one story or another on why he did not need to stay in bed.

Long story short we did not go to D.C. (you can not reward bad behavior with something fun no matter how bad you wanted to go) Instead Nate sat in his room all day on of course you got it the bed he would not stay in the night before!

When Nate was little he was very sick and I almost lost him 3 times, seriously the doctors told me to plan my son's funeral because he would not make it! But when he came through it, by the grace of God no doubt one of the doctor's told me that he has never seen a child with such a strong will to overcome. He is going to do great things when he gets older. I walked away with pride. What he did not tell me that when your child is strong willed that it follows into every aspect of his life. LOL.. Sometimes I think God looks down on me and just laughs when He sees Nathan acting out! LOL! I'm sure it goes something like na na na boo boo!!!!!

But look for the positive right! I got alot done around the house, Ray and I built a stand for our grill. Which was an adventure all in itself. I took some wood and made blocks for my bed, so it would be up higher. (Too hide more stuff) Then found out when we went to bed that they would slide out from under the frame. LOL.. Fixed that on Sunday! LOL. That was so funny by the way. Don't worry no one was hurt.

So Nathan is still grounded but not to worry we are trying the D.C. trip next weekend. And I am not telling him until we leave so then maybe he won't act out! LOL.. I love my son.

Friday, June 09, 2006

I Passed the test

Hello to all. I have an update on the job interviews that I went on Thursday. For me it will be a big fat no... Let me explain. You go into an interview with confidence, for the most part. I went into this building not even knowing what kind of position I was applying for, remember they called me. After I fill out the appropriate paperwork I find out that I am applying for a nursing position in a OB/GYN research center. First red flag for me. I love babies but hate working in the OB/GYN field. I have tried that once before and hated it.. I was already there and thought I would at least complete the interview. By the time I was sitting in the conference room and talking to the human resource lady I was so sick to stomach and just felt so uncomfortable. Some will understand this completely but when God is trying to get your attention about something, He will do it in such a profound way and this was mine! LOL. I almost felt dirty sitting in that room. I later found out that they deal with abortions and some stem cell research as well as alot of other problems. Now I will not judge for someone else decisions or beliefs but for me this was just something I knew I could not be a part of.

I walked out of that building and by the time I got to my car I was almost in tears, I truly felt that uncomfortable. I started talking to God while I was driving down the road, which is normal for me. I asked Him simply why? His remark was "you said it was in My hands I just wanted to see if you would listen!" OUCH! Good thing is I passed... He showed me that even tho I do not see a job in my near future, which is stressing me out big time, He is still in control and with Him by my side how can I fail and not be protected. It was a very humbling experience.

Just so you know, yes I do look like a fool going down the street hitting my steering wheel crying and just talking away to God. I tell people that we get into fights all the time in my car He just always wins.. LOL... You know what I mean by that too, "Why me God why" I try to do what is right and she doesn't and she always gets what I want" "I just don't understand" type of fight....

On a lighter note it is Friday and we are off the dirt track races tonight if weather permits and then Saturday we are going to take a road trip to D.C. for the day of adventure. Nate hasn't seen D.C. in 6 years so he has forgotten a lot of what it is like and Ray has never been there so it will be fun for me to watch them be shocked and amazed. I hope you guys have a great weekend and I will post pictures of our adventures soon...

Thursday, June 08, 2006

Please pass this along

Hey everyone. Ray has not actually read my blog or any of them for that matter. He just laughs and says its funny because this is so not something that you would normally see me doing. So you can imagine my surprise when I got this email from him today....

The note attached was simply this: Hey baby send this to all of your "military girls"! I think he is a little more curious than he wants me to think he is or maybe he goes to work and looks it up there maybe we will never know. LOL...

The average age of the military man is 19 years. He is a short haired, tight-muscled kid who, under normal circumstances is considered by society as half man, half boy. Not yet dry behind the ears, not old enough to buy a beer, but old enough to die for his country. He never really cared much for work and he would rather wax his own car than wash his father's; but he has never collected unemployment either.

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He's a recent High School graduate; he was probably an average student,
pursued some form of sport activities, drives a ten year old beater and has
a steady girlfriend that either broke up with him when he left, or swears to
be waiting when he returns from half a world away. He listens to rock and
roll or hip-hop or rap or jazz or swing and 155mm howizzitor. He is 10 or
15 pounds lighter now than when he was at home because he is working
or fighting from before dawn to well after dusk.

He can recite to you the nomenclature of a machine gun or grenade launcher and
use either one effectively if he must. He digs fightingholes and latrines and can
apply first aid like a professional or sleeps in a 3X8 coffin rack with 80 other Individuals. He can march until he is told to stop or stop until he is told to march.

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He obeys orders instantly and without hesitation, but he is not without
spirit or individual dignity. He is self-sufficient. He has two sets of
fatigues: he washes one and wears the other. He keeps his canteens
full and his feet dry. He sometimes doesn't have time to brush his teeth, but
never to clean his rifle. He can cook his own meals, mend his own
clothes, and fix his own wounds. If you're thirsty, he'll share his water
with you; if you are hungry, his food. He'll even split his ammunition
with you in the midst of battle when you run low. He will sacrifice his life to see his friend survive on.

He has learned to use his hands like weapons and weapons like
they were his hands. He can save your life - or take it, because that
is his job. He will often do twice the work of a civilian, draw half the
pay and still find ironic humor in it all. He has seen more suffering
and death then he should have in his short lifetime.


He has stood atop mountains of dead bodies, and helped to create them.
He has wept in public and in private, for friends who have fallen in combat
and is unashamed. He feels every note of the National Anthem vibrate
through his body while at rigid attention, while tempering the burning
desire to 'square-away' those around him who haven't bothered to stand,
remove their hat, or even stop talking. In an odd twist, day in and day out,
far from home, he defends their right to be disrespectful.

Just as did his Father, Grandfather, and Great-grandfather, he is paying
the price for our freedom. Beardless or not, he is not a boy. He is the
American Fighting Man that has kept this country free for over 200 years.
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He has asked nothing in return, except our friendship and understanding.
Remember him, always, for he has earned our respect and admiration
with his blood. And now we even have woman over there in danger,
doing their part in this tradition of going to War when our nation calls
us to do so. As you go to bed tonight, remember this shot.. A short lull,
a little shade and a picture of loved ones in their helmets.......




Prayer wheel for our military... please don't break it. Please send this on after a short prayer.

Prayer Wheel

"Lord, hold our troops in your loving hands. Protect them as they protect us.
Bless them and their families for the selfless acts they perform for us in our time of need. Amen."


When you receive this, please stop for a moment and say a prayer
for our ground troops in Afghanistan, Sailors on Ships, and airmen in the air,
and for those in Iraq. There is nothing attached.... This can be very powerful.......
Of all the gifts you could give a US Sailor, Soldier, Coastguardsman, Marine
or Airman, prayer is the very best one.
This is a ribbon for soldiers fighting in Middle East.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

I've been tagged!!!

Seven things to do before I die:

1. Get married.
2. Have another child.
3. Go back to college.
4. Own a motorcycle that I can ride.
5. Visit Germany, Italy, Ireland, Greece and Sweden.
6. See my kids have kids.
7. Own a home by the beach, and one in the woods.

Seven things I cannot do:

1. Roll my tongue.
2. Whistle.
3. Make fun of other for my personal gain.
4. Drive a standard.
5. Speak another lanuage.
6. Trust God to handle things without my input!
7. Trust fully without a guard being put up.

Seven things that attracted me to my "husband":
(we aren't married)
1. His smile when he looks at me.
2. His eyes. I knew I was in trouble as soon as I saw them.
3. He is so caring.
4. He loves my son.
5. He takes care of me.
6. He is my best friend.
7. His daily sacrifices.

Seven things I say most often:

1. Baby....
2. Bo what did you do?
3. I said No how hard is that?
4. Awwwwww snap!!
5. Dang it!
6. Bo gotta go pee? Go to the door!
7. I love you too but I said no!

Seven Books I love:

1. How can you conquer what you will not confront, by Paula White
2. Any of Max Lucado's books
3. Or Joyce Myers
4. Love, Sex and Lasting Relationships by cannot remember!
5. Bible
6. Battlefields of the mind
7. Sorry completely blank right now

Seven movies you could watch over and over again:

1. Hope floats
2. Return to me
3. Dirty Dancing
4. Pretty Woman
5. Major Payne
6. Annie
7. Fox and the Hound

Seven people I would like to tag:
1. I do not know any one else they've all been tagged......

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

GRRRRRRR! I can't stand computers

Well I will start with explaining the title. I finished my blog and pushed all the appropriate buttons then BAM it was gone! Just like that. All of my pictures and all of my hard work it was gone. LOL.. so now here is my second attempt:

I was looking at some of the blogs this morning and I was enjoying all of there "tackle it tuesday's" and I delcided to join in. So here is my tackle it tuesday!!!

yep you guessed it I have to bathe his dog!

This is after I told Bo that he was going to get the bath! He hates bath time.. He actually got up from his toy and ran from me.

Now you can't see this but he was running around acting all crazy, not to mention all the shaking he normally does! So instead this is him trying to lick off his puppy cologne. He hates that stuff

So now that I have finished that I am off to do the laundry and mop the floors. Like always. I never get any help.

Here is an update on the job interview: I went this morning and met with the office manager and she and I had a good interview even tho I am not fully qualified for the position she liked me and I am one of the top applicants. Now she has to present them to the head doctor for the team and then he will sit down with only two of us, so I did my part and now it is up to God. I did get another call while I was gone and I now have another interview set up for Thursday for another office. I am leaving the position in God's hands I know He will provide all I need to do is step back and let him

Monday, June 05, 2006

Wow you can tell it is Monday!

I must admit that I try to stay positive most of the time, but today has been so crummy. I do believe that I have cried most of the day! I am so frustrated.

I do not know if you know this but Ray is not my son's father, his father is not involved in his life at all. And yet even though this is his choice it amazes me that he actually tries to hurt me, which only hurts Nathan in the long run, and I am sure you know what I am saying. Without getting to personal he beat me down to where I actually cried over this situation. (I do mean mentally! LOL) Then I am mad that I let him do that to me and that I have to continually lie to my son (so he won't think that he doesn't love him, yes my son asked me that) and make excuses for this man who doesn't even deserve them.. It is so exhausting. Please just keep me in your prayers.

But on a lighter note! We had an amazing weekend. Ray come home from the field again and we spent the whole weekend just playing. We took Nate to see Over the Hedge on Saturday and he loved it, we kind of liked it too.. LOL.. Then on Sunday we decided to go on a bike ride but it could not just be any old bike ride, we went to a National Forest by the Beach! Sounds kind of wired doesn't! We had so much fun... We saw the woods, the beach, the wild horses, the snake that chased us (not so funny and a little scary) I do not think I have seen Ray run so fast! We played with dogs and well it just got really hot, when it was all said and done we had rode our bikes a total of 11.5 miles.. Nathan was so tired! When we got everything loaded up in the truck and was on the road, he was asleep within 10 minutes. He was out cold!!! We then woke him up to go eat at Dairy Queen, Nate's favorite place, and watched the dolphins out in the water...

Why can't every day be a Sunday? LOL
Oh yeah I have a job interview tomorrow. Hopefully I will get the job...

Friday, June 02, 2006

Can We Trust The Lord When The Wind Is Blowing?

Can you sleep while the wind blows? Years ago, a farmer owned land along
the Atlantic seacoast. He constantly advertised for hired hands. Most
people were reluctant to work on farms along the Atlantic. They dreaded the
awful storms that raged across the Atlantic, wreaking havoc on the
buildings and crops.

As the farmer interviewed applicants for the job, he received a steady
stream of refusals. Finally, a short, thin man, well past middle age,
approached the farmer. "Are you a good farm hand?" the farmer asked him.

"Well, I can sleep when the wind blows," answered the little man.
Although puzzled by this answer, the farmer, desperate for help, Hired him.
The little man worked well around the farm, busy from dawn to dusk, and the
farmer felt satisfied with the man's work.

Then one night the wind howled loudly in from offshore. Jumping out of
bed, the farmer grabbed a lantern and rushed next door to the hired hand's
sleeping quarters. He shook the little man and yelled, "Get up! A storm is
coming! Tie things down before they blow away!"

The little man rolled over in bed and said firmly, "No sir. I told you,
I can sleep when the wind blows." Enraged by the response, the farmer was
tempted to fire him on the spot. Instead, he hurried outside to prepare for
the storm.

To his amazement, he discovered that all of the haystacks had been
covered with tarpaulins. The cows were in the barn, the chickens were in
the coops, and the doors were barred. The shutters were tightly secured.
Everything was tied down. Nothing could blow away. The farmer then
understood what his hired hand meant, so he returned to his bed to also
sleep while the wind blew.

When you're prepared, spiritually, mentally, and physically, you have
nothing to fear. Can you sleep when the wind blows through your life?

The hired hand in the story was able to sleep because he had secured the
farm against the storm.

We secure ourselves against the storms of life by grounding ourselves in the Word of God. We don't need to understand, we just need to hold His hand to have peace in the middle of storms.

I hope you enjoy your day and you sleep well.


This was an email that was sent to me a couple of days ago and I thought that I would send it along the way!!!

I hope YOU enjoy your day!



Wow this was entirely too hard! LOL Thanks for the help on this slide show... I tried to do this thru rock you.com but for some reason it did not work and then I saw this one on another blog and decided to try it and for whatever reason it worked yeah me!!!!

I just wanted to thank everyone for the warm welcomes. I honestly only did this to comment on a friends blog not knowing that I would start to like to read about everyone's daily chaos! lol.

Well it is now Friday and my son is on a field trip today! He gets to out on a boat today and he is so excited!!!!

Just one question for all the mamma's out there........ When did they start teaching sex ed classes in the third grade? My son brought home a request for him to be present for the class. I was a little shocked to see that. Granted since I am a nurse he pretty knows all he needs to know, (in the past if he would ask questions I would give him the honest answer, we did not do the birds and the bees route but he knows the facts...) it was kind of funny to watch him it took probably about 2 months of him asking questions then saying "Oh my goodness that is just terrible mom please no more" before he got through it....Can we just leave it that mom was pretty stressed and freaked out those long months.... Not fun for me.. But what do you do? My options were tell him the truth and he knows he can trust me or tell him not to worry about that right now and he then finds out from some older kid on the bus, which is what I did. I can tell you that my son is a firm believer in waiting for marriage, he has no problems telling you that you will hurt your heart more in the long run if you do not wait... Which I am happy with.. He's a smart kid.

But anyway that was a rabbit trail if there is one.... Back to my question.. When did they start teaching this in the third grade?

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Help needed!!!!

I did this nice little slide show to let you guys see some of our pictures from the race and as you can see they are not there! Can anyone hlep me get this?

Are you laughing yet?

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OK Ladies sit down and prepare to laugh! This week has been one disaster after another and I can still sit here and laugh and tell you I had so much fun!

Friday was Ray's birthday and since he has spent some much time in the field I decided to do something fun for him, stuff he would like to do. So after opening his present (an ipod) that was wrapped a total of 6 times, it ended up in a printer box, Nathan loves that! I made him his favorite dinner then we were off the dirt track for the race. The track is about 45 minutes from us and after getting all the way over there, we found out that the race was just canceled because of some freak thunderstorm that came thru! So on to plan B. We went to blockbuster and rented a movie. Then went to bed to prepare for the weekend!

Saturday we all woke up and Nathan decided that he wanted to cook breakfast for us! With Ray's supervision he made scrambled eggs with, cheese, onions, banana peppers and more. He did everything by himself including chopping the peppers. He was so proud. While they were doing that, I began the packing for our camping trip that we were doing! When our breakfast was finished Nate yelled for me to come and get it. LOL. He informed me that if I wanted toast I had to make it myself! I did not have toast for breakfast. After we ate we all got showers and packed up the car to leave and then something told me to check the balance on my debit card..... So I went to get it and it was GONE! After freaking out and telling Ray I began the mad dash around the house, we looked in all of my jeans, which was the last place I remember putting it after I got gas, we looked in the washer, dryer, closet, and the car and not to mention I think I tore everything out of my purse 5 times just to make sure! With no luck I sat down to call the bank and ask the question "has anyone used my card in the last 12 hours?" Thank God no one had used the card so I put a freeze on it so that no one could use it and it would give me time to find it without waiting to get another card! So now at 6:30 p.m. we are off for the camp ground! I know kind of a late start right! The campgrounds were like four hours away, so we called them and asked them to please leave the gate open for us and the assured us that they would. After getting lost, we got to the camp grounds at around midnight and yep you guessed it the gate was locked and there was no way to get in, trust me tried. It was pretty funny! Now finding a motel was not that easy, because everything within 3 hours of Charlotte,NC was booked because of the Nascar race that Sunday, which was the reason for our trip! At about 3 a.m. we found a roach motel to stay in and yes I did say roach motel. But it was that or sleep in the car! Instead we slepted with the roaches! Honestly it wasn't that bad.

Bright and early Sunday morning I hear Nathan say "mom I'm hungry". After only 3 hours of sleep for us and probably 6 hours of sleep for him, he was ready to go! I convinced him to watch cartoons for a little while longer and we then got up took showers and started again. Breakfast in the car and off to the races we went! We got there around 11:30-12:00, and when we parked we had to walk 20 minutes to the track! Now the race did not start until 5:40 and it was already that crowded. Man there was a lot of people there! A lot! We walked around all day and played and had a really good time... It was really hot and of course I said, no I do not need sunblock I never burn! Ladies all I need to say is ouch so burnt am I!!!!! LOL. So after seeing a few cars crash, Tony Stewart going to the emergency room for a chipped shoulder, and of course Kyle Bush's little temper tantrum, he thru his collar at some guy because he made me wreck my car!!!! Kasey Kane won the race..... Poor Nate, this was his first race and he was so tired that he fell asleep in my lap at 10 laps to go. He watched those cars go around that track 390 times before falling asleep. Yes I woke him up to let him see the finish line.. You gotta see all the smoke and donuts that the winner does! After the race we made a mad dash for the car and was on the road again!!!! We drove until 3 a.m. just to find another room.

Now most would think that I had seen enough right! Wrong on the way home Monday we get a call and his mother is coming to visit on Tuesday!!!!!!! GRRRRRRRRR! Now I got laundry and cleaning and so much more to do before she gets there! Not to worry I got it done and we enjoyed our visit.

Now my marine is back in the field, Nate is in school and I am just too tired to care!! I think that I need a nap. LOL


Oh and I have a job interview for next Tuesday so yeah me!!!!!!!

Hope you guys enjoyed my weekend